Morning all,
Me here. Anyways, I've been trying to figure out whether or not I have aspergers/(some other ASD related thing). I've been speculating it for about 6 months now, and I still can't decided. I probably won't be able to get a diagnosis for maybe another year, so I thought I'd ask here instead. I don't really know where to start...
Well I have ADD I guess, which isn't really aspergers related but should probably be considered while reading the rest of this post. After all, lots of my stims might just be my ADD acting up.
Anywho, I'll start out with this I guess:
For as long as I can remember I've been a bit of an odd ball, I sorta stick out like a sour thumb. Most people who come in contact with me remember me, but I on the other hand don't remember most of the people I meet(I may be the worst person with names, I've ever met). I can be quite legalistic. About 2 years ago I was extremely scrupulous. I'd freak out about pretty much everything even vaguely related to morals. Approx 6 months after that I got most of the things straightened out. I'm Catholic so my scrupulousity was moral related, once I started reading the catachism(which explains why catholics believe what we believe) I started figuring everything out. That said, I still can be quite legalistic. I had an incident shortly after that, where I didn't understand my relationship with some of my friends. We were more of acquaintances, but I thought we were close friends, so I started sending them emails full of my thoughts. Approx a year ago, one of my friends sent me a text that made me realize I was wrong. As far as social settings go, I'm actually quite decent. Personally I struggle, but somehow I manage to say the right thing. Well as far as very simple small talk goes. The minute people start asking me questions, things get quite a bit more tricky. As far as reading people goes, I try to make a guess as to what people are feeling. Quite a bit of the time I'm right. But every now and again, I find out I was completely wrong. I'm definitely quite obsessive. I've been obsessed with zelda, harry potter, mbti, minecraft, lotr, and star wars at different times; in most cases more than once. Also worth mentioning is that I'm extremely introverted. In most cases where there is more than 1 other person with me, and assuming I don't know anybody around, I pretty much just hide in a corner and start zoning. I also have a very unique grammar. For instance my typical greeting(if you haven't already noticed) is a varience of good morning. I almost always say good bye in my google chats with ttfn (ta ta for now) and I just tend to quite things in regular speech. That could be a mild form of eucholia(I doubt it, I'm pretty sure Eucholia isn't often used as a form of conversation) As far as stimming goes, it could be mostly ADD. or not. I'll just describe a few things that might be considered stimming. Most times when asked a question that requires some thought I tend to start twitching my face. I do alot of leg tapping. Particularly when I'm sitting still and trying to focus. That would probably be ADD but some of the time it's pretty extreme. Like moving my leg about a foot, repeatedly. Next up is my tendency to quote things alot. But I do know a handful of people who do it too. I don't typically get sensory overloaded too much. Maybe once or twice a week. most times less. Now in my eyes most of the above seems to indicate that I'm somewhere on the spectrum. But the thing is is that, some of this stuff I don't do so much anymore. I do struggle with social settings and figuring out when to speak, but I don't make many mistakes. Plus I'm quite good at reading people. So I've started thinking that maybe I'm just a late bloomer, or something. Thoughts?
23 Apr 2014, 12:16 am
