Does this sound obsessive or delusional, or a bit of both?

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You're in Air Force basic military training and are starting to crack under the stress. You then have fantasies of going AWOL, joining the Communist Party, and taking over the country. You then seriously consider going through with the plan and begin looking for ways you can get away from your training flight and off the base.

Also, during Air Force Basic, I believed I was destined to become a world hero. I kept an amethyst stone with me and believed that I was going to be sent to a mission over North Korea and shot down. I would then journey through China and the Himalayas and discover magical power, bringing it back into the world. Then I would meet my villain.

I would say that both of these are preoccupations or overvalued ideas, but neither reached the level of a true obsession (an ego-dystonic experience) or a true delusion (firmly believing it was true).

True obsessions are described as thus in the Examination of Anomalous Self-Experience:

Rule of thumb: Don't believe everything you think.

Sometimes I like to fantasize a lot. And usually what I think of really depends on what interests me the most. I have no hallucinations or anything myself.

If no one can see, hear, or in any way perceive what you think, should it matter than much in real-life? Obviously not. But it's a fun thing to to anyway.

Have you ever shared your adventurous thoughts with other people as if they were true, even while knowing it not to be the case?

I think delusions are firmly held beliefs, so technically people who have them believe them to be true. In your case it looks like a form of escapism rather than a delusional belief if you know it to be fantasy and actually real.