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05 Aug 2014, 3:05 pm

When I was 6-8 years old, I would hear voices in my head a lot. I also saw things that didn't exist, like cats on the streets that just disappeared in front of me like air.

As a 14-year-old, I was diagnosed with a psychosis because I heard voices and saw things that weren't there. I also had delusions. I was hospitalized. Since then, I have taken antipsychotics, which I have done for 4 years now. I stopped using this medicine two weeks ago.

I'm scared now, because I'm 18 and my doctor told me yesterday that she believes I am getting another psychosis because I stopped using my medicine! 8O I refuse to believe this!! :cry:



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05 Aug 2014, 3:24 pm

You will see what happens. Maybe you got cured by time?

I used to have schizoid like episodes when I was 13-15 years old (I believed someone is casting spells on me and that I am a witch too and I can move things by my mind. I also have had a imaginary friend that was with me all the time and I could speak with her as if she was standing next to me... stuffs like that) but I didn't take any medicine and the symptoms faded themselves. I don't have any hallucinations or delusions now.

I don't know how bad your condition was but many people have vivid imagination when they are childs or teenagers (you wouldn't believe how may 13 year old people say they seen a ghost or ufo :lol:) and it gets better with age.
Just watch yourself carefully. Maybe you are a healthy adult now.



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05 Aug 2014, 5:25 pm

Putting children on drugs for being children. Great world we live in.



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05 Aug 2014, 7:00 pm

Redfan45x wrote:
Putting children on drugs for being children. Great world we live in.


Hallucinations and delusions are not "being a child".


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06 Aug 2014, 12:53 am

If you stop them and they come back, you kinda know how it goes. No need to refuse it.

The question goes, what does the psychosis do to you (no need to answer that, it's an introspective question)? If it's bad for your life, then return to the medication. If it's possible to live with, well, your choice.

I've found you can learn to ignore the things you see and hear, and paranoia, well, I think it's smart to assume everyone is out to get you, so keeping your back to the wall works well enough. And who cares if people can read your thoughts? Mine would be no different to theirs (generally speaking; I ain't got nothing to hide). And so on and so on until you logic it all away.



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06 Aug 2014, 3:31 am

The strange thing is that I don't have any hallucinations now. The only thing my doctor noticed is that my thoughts disappear.

I have regressed a lot the last 6 days: I no longer speak (at all), I have no eye contact, I'm hard to reach, and my previous motor skills have worsened such as walking, grabbing things and such. I react very slowly when people speak to me and I barely understand spoken language anymore. I need to get things written down. I stim a lot more. What has happened to me? :? My doctor will investigate me but she believes it's a psychosis.



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06 Aug 2014, 9:39 am

If you aren't suffering from anxiety due to stopping the medication (it does help such, so you might have been doing more than what you're capable of when you're not on them, so this can make symptoms of an ASD more pronounced):

that stuff does sound like classic negative symptoms of schizophrenia (psychosis), which medication does help to some extent (albeit not as good as the positive ones like delusions and hallucinations)

However, worsening of an underlying ASD as above is also possible (negative symptoms of Schizophrenia and ASDs overlap a lot, so that's hard to differentiate).

It might be good to go back on them if you don't stabilize -- if you start feeling better, then you know something is up regarding the medication and what it treats.

Did you lower the dosage slowly over time? Abruptly stopping tends to be a bad thing for most people (the symptoms come back in full force and your body does have to change itself a little as it's gotten used to 4 years of medication).



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06 Aug 2014, 10:24 am

Dillogic wrote:
If you aren't suffering from anxiety due to stopping the medication (it does help such, so you might have been doing more than what you're capable of when you're not on them, so this can make symptoms of an ASD more pronounced):

that stuff does sound like classic negative symptoms of schizophrenia (psychosis), which medication does help to some extent (albeit not as good as the positive ones like delusions and hallucinations)

However, worsening of an underlying ASD as above is also possible (negative symptoms of Schizophrenia and ASDs overlap a lot, so that's hard to differentiate).

It might be good to go back on them if you don't stabilize -- if you start feeling better, then you know something is up regarding the medication and what it treats.

Did you lower the dosage slowly over time? Abruptly stopping tends to be a bad thing for most people (the symptoms come back in full force and your body does have to change itself a little as it's gotten used to 4 years of medication).

So I might have schizophrenia?

Yes, I lowered the dosage slowly over time. I started using my medicine again, 5 days ago.



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06 Aug 2014, 10:38 am

How does the doctor mean when he/she states that your "thoughts disappear?"

I wouldn't think that you're schizophrenic at the moment. I'm thinking more "anxiety."

You should see someone as soon as possible--preferably the person prescribing your meds.

Obviously, only a qualified doctor could actually diagnose you.

One thing I do notice: your rationality is intact when you write--so it's not a lost cause, by any means.



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06 Aug 2014, 10:43 am

kraftiekortie wrote:
How does the doctor mean when he/she states that your "thoughts disappear?"

I wouldn't think that you're schizophrenic at the moment. I'm thinking more "anxiety."

You should see someone as soon as possible--preferably the person prescribing your meds.

Obviously, only a qualified doctor could actually diagnose you.

One thing I do notice: your rationality is intact when you write--so it's not a lost cause, by any means.

The doctor wrote down questions to me, and one of the questions was whether I had a lot of thoughts in my head or if the thoughts disappeared. I wrote that they disappeared.

I am not experiencing much anxiety at the moment. But I don't know why I can't speak anymore. I will see the doctor again very soon.



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06 Aug 2014, 5:27 pm

I believe when thoughts "disappear," it's called "forgetting." This happens to me all the time, and I'm not a senile old goat...yet!

Seriously. What happens when you physically attempt to speak?



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06 Aug 2014, 6:32 pm

kraftiekortie wrote:
I believe when thoughts "disappear," it's called "forgetting." This happens to me all the time, and I'm not a senile old goat...yet!

Seriously. What happens when you physically attempt to speak?

I wander about without thoughts in my head.

When I try to speak I can't form words, although I can write them. I can make sounds like whining, but not words. It's very frustrating so I hit and kick things because I haven't spoken for a week.



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06 Aug 2014, 6:43 pm

I'm sorry, Sweetie. I could understand the frustration.

Do you have access to a speech therapist? Do you have access to an AAC (augmentative and alternative communication device), where you could type out what you're "saying," and show it to a person--better than writing it out with a pen.

I'm also wondering if you have some kind of apraxia which could be treated by a speech pathologist/speech therapist.

Sometimes, you THINK you don't have any thoughts. When actually you do. I'm wondering if there are painful thoughts that you don't want to think about.



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06 Aug 2014, 6:44 pm

Maybe we could have a "talk."

What do you like to do when you are having fun?



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06 Aug 2014, 6:51 pm

kraftiekortie wrote:
I'm sorry, Sweetie. I could understand the frustration.

Do you have access to a speech therapist? Do you have access to an AAC (augmentative and alternative communication device), where you could type out what you're "saying," and show it to a person--better than writing it out with a pen.

I'm also wondering if you have some kind of apraxia which could be treated by a speech pathologist/speech therapist.

Sometimes, you THINK you don't have any thoughts. When actually you do. I'm wondering if there are painful thoughts that you don't want to think about.


I don't go to any speech therapist and I don't have an AAC. I don't know if I have any kind of apraxia, at least I'm not diagnosed with it. Ok, you're right :) , I may think I don't have any thoughts. I can't think of any painful thoughts that I don't want to think about.



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06 Aug 2014, 6:52 pm

kraftiekortie wrote:
Maybe we could have a "talk."

What do you like to do when you are having fun?

I like writing, and reading books. :) That's fun.