Impatient whenever i try to learn anything new.

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Whenever i try to learn something that i deeply want, and i mean deeply i am very persistent to get it. But quite for a long time I've had a giant problem. I simply fail every single time. I need to be overstimulated and my methods keep fluctuating.

No method works for me, i invested several hours into research and tried things realistically. I try things out for months or years since i have quite high esteem about myself and trust myself a lot. But then i realistically realized that I just can't learn nearly anything new. All the methods i researched for years and months are just becoming useless and useless.

Japanese? Tried 5 different methods extensively for 2 years. Nothing. No matter how persistent i was ( I am very very perssistent).
Programming? Nope tried multiple learning methods and was lurking around forums for 3 years and trying to learn programs. Nothing. Everything gone.
Unreal Engine 4? Tried my best. I really like UE4 and wanted to learn it. 3 months. Nothing. Everything gone.
3D Modelling and Animation? Did this as much, and i mean as much as i can. Nothing came out of it. I couldn't even do anything after the tutorial.

I need constant stimulation. I literally listen to two heavy topics being discussed by highly intelligent people on Youtube at the same time with a faint little music in the background while playing Castlevania III ( A very Brutal and infamous game ). I am being serious. This is what actually happens.

I think i may have ADD because my sibling Aspie brother is so dedicated to what he does and focuses on it non-stop. Its simply inspiring to see and I just wanted to know what to do about it. I only have 60+ years to live and I deeply want to achieve these things, but for some reason it just disappears two days or later.

I just wander, why? What is it that i am missing? Why doesn't this stick even after all the years of practice? Why! Why Why Why! It just gets me so stressed because i deeply want to learn those things. I can learn and play any game that's new no problem. I get to an expert level after about 3 days.

I can listen and watch a Youtube video that's intelligent and discusses actuall problems for 20+ minutes but when it's about modelling i just have to do something else because it just doesn't stick to my memory no matter how hard i focus. I even tried blocking all websites that would make me now watch the video but i am wrong. It did nothing. *sigh* I just honestly need to know why this is happening.

Do any of you have any advice because i am just so stressed and too determined to let them go? Did any of you experience this?