So, throughout my life I have never been sure if I actually have Aspergers or not, but I definitely have some serious social issues. This has led me to want to socialize more often, as a way to learn, and to expand my limited social circle. My means for this has been going out to a bar and I have made a few new connections this way over a couple of years. I have managed to reduce my social anxiety by a lot, and more and more I have begun to question if I am actually seriously different from others at all.
However, a couple of weeks back I had a drunken conversation with a guy I've met a bunch of times who is older than me, he told me he was in the same seat as I when he was my age, that I was sort of an outcast, and recommended me to see a psychiatrist (he also revealed that he was seeing one, and had been for a couple of years). So I answered something along the lines of "Yeah, I think there is something different about me, when I was kid doctors suspected I might have aspergers, but I don't think I actually have, and even then this is really not so serious that I need to see someone". He said: "Oh, you're Aspergers as f**k, dude!". I was still convinced my situation wasn't as bad as his was back in the day, so I kinda shrugged it off. But obviously, this thought has been festering in my head, and some of my recent social failings have cause me to worry about this stuff..
I don't really know what I expect from posting this here, I am not really asking a question. I suppose I just needed to express my thoughts somewhere.