I fear life, not death.

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Who else feels this way, and how do I change for the better?

What do you want to change?

I feel the same way.
(Waiting to read your response to Waterfalls' question)

I can't say I wouldn't run if a hungry bear was chasing me or anything, but life really does take it out of me. I'm usually worried about something, and if I'm not working I'm generally feeling down because I'm looking at how naturally everyone else does things like making friends.

The solution(s) are probably situational. Just getting a handle on anxiety has made a big difference, though there are still a lot of areas I dread dealing with.

I often debate if i would run/defend myself. if others are in danger I would, but if just me. idk
I'm so utterly worthless, so how can i take the life of another living thing that is worth far more then me.

Because it ends all chance of something better.

Laying aside spiritual beliefs for a moment, once you die, that's it, game over permanently.

While you live, there are still possibilities.

I fear both

I know how you feel. Life seems so pointless when you don't get anything good out of it. I lack the capacity to love myself. I have a long history of self abuse, self harm and neglect. I really don't want to be on this planet but I stay here because I cannot prevent myself from thinking of other people. Having had more experience with the aftermath of suicide than I would care to mention I would not wish to subject the people I love to such trauma. They are my reason for trying to get better.
You need to deal with it. Seek help and don't stop searching until you find something that works. There's lots of information out there. I find depression makes me very selfish. It becomes all about how I'm feeling - forget about everyone else. The antidote is to get out there and help other people - and yourself at the same time.