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Emotionally Unaware. Being Too Naive.
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ReGiFroFoLa
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PostPosted: Fri Nov 21, 2008 4:20 am    Post subject: Emotionally Unaware. Being Too Naive. Reply with quote

Why do I always have to be afraid? Even here, through the cybernetic bounds - I can sense the hate... Why am I so naive? Everyone just keeps putting me down. I still just have to apologise for words I say and things I do... It so hard.

I wish I was muted and severely autistic; hidden in my own, protective bubble. With nothing, and no one being able to hurt me. I hate my Asperger's of which I am not diagnosed yet; I love my Autism, which is only immaginary. I am bored with the person I am. Here me out. But don't reply if You have any sharp comments. No more I can stand.

Everyone is just too selfish. I am selfish, because I want understanding; You are selfish, because You can't understand my situation. I take all the blame on me. How long can I do it? When I have no family around and no friends. There is no one - only my lonely reflection in the mirror every morning; and this cybernetic gateway... How hard is it to understand?
Oh well, it's not Your responsibility to care for me. I understand.
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PostPosted: Fri Nov 21, 2008 7:04 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

you cannot blame yourself for everything. that is just not fair.
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PostPosted: Fri Nov 21, 2008 9:17 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

tweety_fan wrote:
you cannot blame yourself for everything. that is just not fair.


But this is just the pressure of the outside world. And since I can not understsnd it - I think it is my fault, that I still fail.
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PostPosted: Fri Nov 21, 2008 12:50 pm    Post subject: Re: Emotionally Unaware. Being Too Naive. Reply with quote

It's not your fault. I'm naive too

ReGiFroFoLa wrote:
Why do I always have to be afraid? Even here, through the cybernetic bounds - I can sense the hate... Why am I so naive? Everyone just keeps putting me down. I still just have to apologise for words I say and things I do... It so hard.

I wish I was muted and severely autistic; hidden in my own, protective bubble. With nothing, and no one being able to hurt me. I hate my Asperger's of which I am not diagnosed yet; I love my Autism, which is only immaginary. I am bored with the person I am. Here me out. But don't reply if You have any sharp comments. No more I can stand.

Everyone is just too selfish. I am selfish, because I want understanding; You are selfish, because You can't understand my situation. I take all the blame on me. How long can I do it? When I have no family around and no friends. There is no one - only my lonely reflection in the mirror every morning; and this cybernetic gateway... How hard is it to understand?
Oh well, it's not Your responsibility to care for me. I understand.
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PostPosted: Sat Nov 22, 2008 9:59 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

*Shrugs* You are emotionally naive.

"Shared sorrow is lessened whilst shared joy is increased"

So spread the sorrow, make EVERYONE miserable.

For without misery, there is no company or happiness.

And yeah, I'm selfish. I'm also rude, arrogant, stand-offish and irritating.

I really have no desire to understand you, merely to help you. Fact is. most people won't want to understand you.

But I guarantee that one day you will find someone that understands you.

Regards
GM
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PostPosted: Sat Nov 22, 2008 10:51 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

Gifted-Monster wrote:
*Shrugs* You are emotionally naive.

"Shared sorrow is lessened whilst shared joy is increased"

So spread the sorrow, make EVERYONE miserable.

For without misery, there is no company or happiness.

And yeah, I'm selfish. I'm also rude, arrogant, stand-offish and irritating.

I really have no desire to understand you, merely to help you. Fact is. most people won't want to understand you.

But I guarantee that one day you will find someone that understands you.

Regards
GM


Thank You for Your unusual post. I enjoy Your point of view.
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PostPosted: Sat Nov 22, 2008 12:30 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

So many people seem to have guilt complexes about selfishness. I suppose it's good for the group that we encourage those who can to work together as well as possible, but...

It's not a sin. Really. It's okay. Selfishness is part of who you are, part of who I am. Selfishness is part of every sane person on the planet.

At the end of the day, you're the only person you can trust to always be there for you. Be good to yourself. No matter how you might fall outside the little boxes the rest of the world insists on drawing, those different parts of your mind that are so angrily arguing right now.. they're still a together, outside that box, and they're still a team. They need to learn to work as one. Abusing yourself like that, carelessly throwing blame onto the shoulders of someone who doesn't deserve it, is just unfair.

Trying to teach yourself to be selfless is like trying to teach yourself not to eat. You're just going to starve...
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