jc6chan
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| I used to be obsessed with making sure all the plugs into the sockets in my room were plugged in properly. I remember I would always press hard on the plastic and force the plugs into the sockets. I would feel responsible if a house fire ever started. |
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KSea
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| Posted: Thu Oct 07, 2010 9:14 pm Post subject: |
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| That's awful! Can you seek a counselor or someone qualified w/ ways to help? Maybe you should get rid of your sinks! And just use hand sanitizer, b/c then you'll have no sinks to tempt you...and you'll go crazy at first but then it'll get better? Like an extinction burst..? |
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Fudo
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| Posted: Thu Oct 07, 2010 11:17 pm Post subject: |
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i doubt it's that simple.. i use hand sanitiser every day and only wash with sinks when i feel i have to, ie having been to the lavatory/bathroom. i never 'want' to nowadays.. i'm seeing a 'social worker' about it and general mental health , i've recently been prescribed sertraline, an ssri anti-depressant also licensed for ocd but so far have been scared to take it as i have little support day-to-day and worry i might not cope, not that i really 'cope' now as such. if/when i do take it i may get CBT which i've been asking for, for many years.
i've also just this week applied for a specialist college for students with disabilities.. hoping that will 'save' me, naive maybe..
i wasn't always like this, i can remember times up to maybe 3 and half years ago and anytime before that when the thought of germs didn't really bother me.. i know because i acted very differently, i can't actually remember what it felt like.
would've replied sooner but i had to... wash my hands lol
thanks whoever made this thread, i've read loads of posts about AS but very rarely find people with OCD is good to see it included.
anyways sorry for the wall o'text. |
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KSea
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| Goodluck w/ everything--I'll pray at least one of those things helps! One of my most destructive OCD things I've done since I was little and don't even remember is pulling out my eyelashes. Ugh, I hate it, and can nowadays usually fight the urge...for a little while...but then the night I can't, I end up looking weird of course, b/c they don't "feel right"...totally unexplainable. I also pick my face for at least an hour almost every night...til it's bleeding and swollen. I have lots of these "self cleaning make me better" rituals...aaaaggravating indeed. |
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WhiteRaven_214
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| Posted: Fri Oct 08, 2010 10:29 pm Post subject: |
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Yes, I'm officially diagnosed with OCD (Pure-O type). It almost lead to my self-demise. I was prescribed up to 200mg Luvox. That dosage was too strong for me, and I went all funny, eventually leading me to attempt suicide (as well  ). But the dosage was dropped, and I'm seeing a Psychologist doing CBT, and now I feel much, much better.  .
OCD is one of these conditions that is 100% rat$hit; it has no silver lining, and nobody will ever have a want or need for it. The condition makes you think things that cripple your conscience, and do things that eliminate your inner peace. |
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27315
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| Posted: Sat Oct 09, 2010 6:10 am Post subject: |
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| KSea wrote: | | Wow (and read Wiki), that sounds like things I do as well...so would this be an example: I have not had to deal w/ this bad lately, but there was a period of time where I'd have like movie-reel images of horror movies (but things I had not even seen) going through my head that I could not stop. And there's def. times I think about exact things you said, and then you get paranoid...but I try to push it away as me just analyzing and thinking deeply on things and then redirect my mind best I can. I don't know if this would be an example either, but sometimes when I'm driving (which I hate and find so scary) if I go over a bridge for example, I start thinking of scenes of people driving off bridges and it becomes so real to me...and I'm like, "All I'd have to do is turn my wheel just a LITTLE to the left and I'd die=that simple--oh my gosh, that's so scary--" It's like death is so close and all it takes is a little turn, mistake or not, and then I'm like, Oh gosh, I'm not going to do that!!! no no It's weird and hard to explain. I've actually never told ANYONE about this stuff b/c I didn't want to see crazy or them take it the wrong way and think I was suicidal when I'm def. not. |
That's how I think to, I have never dared to use sharp knives couse when ever I hold one in my hand I can only think of all the horible things that could happen within a second and it feels really bad that I have those thoughts especially when they inwolve my family and friends (the thougths always involve everybody present).
WhiteRaven_214
I dissagree with you about OCD being only a burden;
I understand with the obsessive thougts part but with the rituals I have actually realized that I'm glad that I have them,
when I get stressed I can go out for a walk and follow all the rules I have and that makes me feel good. |
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happymusic
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| Posted: Sat Oct 09, 2010 9:33 am Post subject: |
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| WhiteRaven_214 wrote: |
OCD is one of these conditions that is 100% rat$hit; it has no silver lining, and nobody will ever have a want or need for it. The condition makes you think things that cripple your conscience, and do things that eliminate your inner peace. |
Wow, I agree completely. I've never found a positive quality about my OCD. I was diagnosed with it around 2006 or so and have had it since at least 1979 which is when the hand washing started. It feels like a serious mental illness and the rituals offer me no comfort.
I have to keep knives in a drawer and don't like holding them. Those intrusive thoughts feel like some terrible presence has invaded my mind. Meditation has helped ease it, though. I've found it's the only thing that helps.
I think there's a theory that OCD can be a response to stress where you're trying to control things - not like a control freak but to get things under control. Mine started I think as a reaction to domestic violence. |
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WhiteRaven_214
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| Posted: Sat Oct 09, 2010 10:21 am Post subject: |
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Strangely enough, my OCD started at around 12 or 13, at the start of puberty. Coincidentally, most of my obsessions were either of extreme violence or of sexual perversions. These thoughts were streaming into my brain gradually, sneaking up from behind; since I knew nothing about the nature of these thoughts ("poor insight"), I followed mental routines such as avoidance and distraction. This worked for a while, but this mental blocking tired me, and the thoughts come back as soon as the routine stops.
The fear, doubt and disturbances I had experienced, starting from 12yo up until four months ago, was nothing short of demonic. |
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KSea
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| Posted: Sun Oct 10, 2010 6:45 pm Post subject: |
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White Raven:
So interesting thing to bring up--granted, I know many people don't beleive in demons and such, but I'm a Christian and def. def. DEF. do--what are your thoughts on that more in depthly? Demons/OCD and or neg. crap life throws ya, and so forth. And I suppose OCD could have it's positives for some people like one of you said, but I know for me it's gotta be at least 99% awful and I'd LOVE to not have it/struggle w/ it! |
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WhiteRaven_214
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| Posted: Mon Oct 11, 2010 6:54 am Post subject: |
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KSea
That is quite an observation -yes I'm Christian. 
What I mean about my OCD being demonic, is that the obsessions that appeared in my head follow very closely to what the Bible says about the behavior of the Demons.
Early in Genesis, it described these spirit creatures as originally angels having "noticed" that the "daughters of men" were "good looking". So, they materialized into a physical state (presumably in the form of human men), and then took, and married, as many of these 'good-lookers' as they desired. This, of course, is what was contrary to their original purpose; these spirits were not meant to have physical relations with women, because they were not human; besides this, they weren't meant to have sexual relations at all. The point in all of this, is that the obsessions that I had experienced, reflected the unnatural sexual desires and devious intent of the Demons (they, after all, appeared to be as something to these women that they weren't).
My obsessions have also reflected the violent nature of the Demons. According to the Bible, they persecuted people by possessing and controlling them, causing them to violently hurt themselves and others; on occasions, they inflicted diseases on their targets (i.e. Job), and made them speak profane (vulgar) and blasphemous things (telling lies against God), as well as do other nasty stuff, like involuntarily prostitute themselves (Mary Magdalene) and speak accurate predictions in behalf of powerful gambling rackets (without any benefits to themselves, of cause - Acts 16:16). There was even a time when a legion (1000!) these evil creatures transferred themselves from a single man, into a herd of pigs; they possessed all of the pigs, and made them jump off a cliff, to their deaths (the evil spirits survived - they can't physically die)
So in conclusion, I tell you (at the very least) that the Demons described in the Bible are bad news - they're violent, sexually perverse, speak lies against God (their own Father), and they torture and kill both humans and animals for cheap thrills.
So this is what I mean about my OCD - the obsessions reflect the nature of the Demons, and that is why I hate it so much! |
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happymusic
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| Posted: Mon Oct 11, 2010 8:10 am Post subject: |
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| KSea and WhiteRaven, I completely agree with the demonic nature of OCD. I was just saying the other day that I bet people have had exorcisms because of OCD. |
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KSea
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| Posted: Mon Oct 11, 2010 9:10 am Post subject: |
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| ::nods:: I agree demons can "oppress" Christians but I don't believe they can "possess" Christians. And I think b/c of sin and living in a fallen world it's just part of it--and it's all one big spiritual battlefield. Def. makes you wonder what "afflictions" and thorns in the side the disciples and others dealt w/ back in the day. |
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ocdgirl123
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| I have OCD, I am FAR more obsessive than compulsive. |
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meow457
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| Posted: Fri Oct 15, 2010 2:02 am Post subject: |
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| Hi. I have had severe OCD diagnosed 6 years ago. |
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DeadpanDan
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| Posted: Fri Oct 15, 2010 3:45 am Post subject: |
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Yes, full-blown OCD.
Medication + CBT helped a lot. I used to spend most of the day washing my hands. Now, I only do such when required for hygiene. I still obsess a lot over things I don't want to obsess over, which causes distress, but I can't seem to "fix" this part of the disorder. |
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