No need for routine but need for plan/timing.

1000Knives · Posted: Wed May 23, 2012 7:47 am Post subject:

My problem isn't so much a routine, or even planning, it's that I don't adapt well to changes other people adapt to. Like when random new people live in my house (my sister's friends) I basically flip out or shut down, and I can't get anything accomplished during that time. So my dislike of "change" is things like that, I don't like randomly flip out because Taco Bell stopped carrying the tacos I used to order everyday or something. On the flip side, in crisis situations, I'm usually much much more rationally thinking than the people around me, and am cool as a cucumber, it's just my problems are adapting to "normal" long term life changes like that. I pretty much never do well when there's extra people living in my house, and I got a friend with NVLD who's the same way.

As far as unplanned activities, it depends on how much of a pain it turns out to be. When I'm by myself, I can be sort of spontaneous in the way I plan things, but it's sorta like...planned spontaneity? Like I do not see it as "going with the flow" it's just me deciding to do something different after thinking about it. One thing that causes me I guess meltdowns and whatnot is if I'm driving, and I'm driving a friend around, and he plans out one errand, and it turns into a big afternoon sorta trip thing. Actually, pretty much anything unplanned while driving causes me problems. It's probably a lot to do with my NVLD and visual spatial issues that come with it, I have to kinda think so hard while I'm driving, that if people add places to go without it being on the itinerary in my head, it screws up everything. So driving is hard, in that, the only way it seems physically possible to do it is me planning it out.

One other thing I'm sensitive to, too, is diet. Like, I can physically eat about anything put in front of me. I like most food, with a few random exceptions. I definitely don't have "narrow" eating habits, and actually to the opposite, my "NT" family members have narrower eating habits. One thing for me, that my mom doesn't understand is, I need to eat healthy to be like, mentally healthy. My mom sees it as a basically some random weird person OCDish kinda thing, but it's not, I just need to eat healthy and buy a few supplements, and my mom doesn't understand that it's sorta like, life and death, not like, literally, but I feel my diet and stuff affects me a lot. I think it falls under life changes that other people adapt to, but I don't. Other people can eat crap and seemingly not be emotionally or mentally affected, even if their bodies suffer, whereas me, I've been more sensitive to things that are blatantly unhealthy for me. Like nobody believed my Aspartame sensitivity, Aspartame is obviously unhealthy as can be, but somehow other people manage to ingest it without feeling terrible, but me, I'd get headaches and stuff, which is sorta good, as it is bad for you, but it makes you seem like a nutter when you suggest what it does to you and whatnot.
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