I'm going to kill myself in a couple of hours.

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31 Aug 2010, 6:39 pm

Once again, I don't want to sound like a hypocrite because I am only here because of my children, but please don't do this. I am over twice your age, in my 40s. Give yourself a little more time, at least, before doing something so permanent. It's too early to declare failure.

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31 Aug 2010, 6:56 pm

Dun dooooo eeeeeeeeeeet. D:

I know I wanted to kill myself a month back but I decided to give myself until I'm 30 to see whether or not I'm a failure as a human being. Just give yourself more time. :)



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31 Aug 2010, 7:01 pm

Robin, I read through your post and I understand why you don't see a solution right now.

You say you don't want the folks at your college to know you because it would make them sad if they hear that you died. That's true: you are someone of value, you're going to college, so yes, people will be sad if you decide to end your life. That's exactly a reason not to do it. Live your life, explore it and get your career going.

If I understand correctly, Laura will be attending the same college as you, in your hometown. You may bump into each other, but hey, there are loads of people there. I go to the same university as my nephew, and the only time I see him is when we text where we are. And if you see her, don't make a deal out of it. If you leave her alone I don't think she will have a problem with it. After all, there are lots more guys of your age around. Just try to ignore her, you can do that. You can direct your attention to other things, like you have done in the past year.

This will be a chance for you to make a fresh start: as you pointed out, you don't know the people at your college yet and they don't know you. Make the choice to see what life has to offer: you're only sixteen right now, you have a whole life ahead of you. If things look bad now, then that won't be forever. Things will change, but you will have to pull through. You will only know how life is for you when you live it. And that's quite a few years away from now. Don't be afraid, things will ultimately end okay for you. Believe in yourself, if you want this enough you can do it.



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31 Aug 2010, 7:54 pm

Don't. Don't do it. :(



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01 Sep 2010, 12:43 am

The future is to damn interesting to off yourself.


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01 Sep 2010, 7:18 am

I think he did. I PMed him and have gotten no response. I can only hope he didn't.



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01 Sep 2010, 7:20 am

ShadesOfMe wrote:
I think he did. I PMed him and have gotten no response. I can only hope he didn't.


I wouldn't be getting worried just yet. He could have just went to bed or simply haven't gotten around to answering PMs yet. I know that after I posted a thread like this, I went on a 4 day vacation with my family. This sparked a "Where's Erisad?" thread because people were worried about my absence. So I would wait a little longer before declaring someone dead. *nod nod*



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01 Sep 2010, 7:24 am

Erisad wrote:
ShadesOfMe wrote:
I think he did. I PMed him and have gotten no response. I can only hope he didn't.


I wouldn't be getting worried just yet. He could have just went to bed or simply haven't gotten around to answering PMs yet. I know that after I posted a thread like this, I went on a 4 day vacation with my family. This sparked a "Where's Erisad?" thread because people were worried about my absence. So I would wait a little longer before declaring someone dead. *nod nod*
Well, he's non declared as of yet, but worry has set in.



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01 Sep 2010, 7:26 am

ShadesOfMe wrote:
Erisad wrote:
ShadesOfMe wrote:
I think he did. I PMed him and have gotten no response. I can only hope he didn't.


I wouldn't be getting worried just yet. He could have just went to bed or simply haven't gotten around to answering PMs yet. I know that after I posted a thread like this, I went on a 4 day vacation with my family. This sparked a "Where's Erisad?" thread because people were worried about my absence. So I would wait a little longer before declaring someone dead. *nod nod*
Well, he's non declared as of yet, but worry has set in.


For now, all we can do is hope he's okay. :(



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01 Sep 2010, 7:34 am

I hope so. He seems really nice, and I'd like to be his friend. I've had similar experiences, with the places he had to go and what not,so I can understand on some level.



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01 Sep 2010, 9:30 am

Spiders: That is true. I had cyclic deep depression and would spend years planning how to kill myself several hours, sometimes all the hours, a day. If I had I would have never gotten a family, raised five children, published a book, gone to Rwanda and introduced a new crop, etc etc. At 58 my husband and I have a loving marriage and a lot of fun.



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01 Sep 2010, 9:51 am

I understand, too well...I just hope he didn't do it :(

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01 Sep 2010, 6:47 pm

lelia wrote:
Spiders: That is true. I had cyclic deep depression and would spend years planning how to kill myself several hours, sometimes all the hours, a day. If I had I would have never gotten a family, raised five children, published a book, gone to Rwanda and introduced a new crop, etc etc. At 58 my husband and I have a loving marriage and a lot of fun.


Wow, you have done a lot of great things. And also contributed to the wellbeing of other people. I think that is a big part of overcoming suicidal thoughts, turning attention away from that internal dialogue and helping other people, can make you feel as if you have something to live for. Well that's what I've found anyway.



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01 Sep 2010, 10:55 pm

Please don't do it.


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01 Sep 2010, 11:01 pm

Bah! What's the rush? You have your whole life to kill yourself! Why not wait a day, or even a few? Why not a week or two? Just give it some time, and see if you still feel the same way - you know, they say that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.



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02 Sep 2010, 1:44 pm

rowingineden wrote:
Bah! What's the rush? You have your whole life to kill yourself! Why not wait a day, or even a few? Why not a week or two? Just give it some time, and see if you still feel the same way - you know, they say that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.


I know this isnt the thread to talk about this but i'll be that guy. It isnt a temporary problem when the only thing you crave noone has found ever. All i want is a good enough reason to say you know what, f**k it that seems good enough to deal with s**t for. I havent found this and am 100% sure i wont. Im letting my current psychiatrist the last chance to let me find this or im outta here.