What was your childhood like?

Ai_Ling · Phoenix Joined: Nov 16, 2010 Age: 24 Posts: 1832

My childhood, when I was young I was rather quiet and shy. Up till the age of eight, I sorta played around the other kids always having just one or two friends. When I was 8, I switched into an all girls school and went mute. I was only at that school for 1 year. So I was diagnosed with selective mutism. This was the time I think I should have been diagnosed with Asperger's but unfortunately during the 90s, aspergers was little known of at the time. Then I moved back to coed and I was bullied in 4th grade, I started doing better by 6th grade then middle school came and it was all downhill from there. I had no friends until my senior year of high-school. During those years I was becoming progressively more and more locked inside my own head. I was socially unaware of my peers. During my early to mid teen years I had my obsessions with rock music and making up stories in my head. During this time I was told by the adults around me that I was just super shy and thats it. So it made it seem that I just needed to not be shy and I would have friends. I believed it. So when I was 17, I broke out of my "shyness" and started trying to talk to some people however this didnt work the way I thought it would. Coming into my senior year, all the numerous troubles that aspies go thru was piling up with me beginning to idealize suicide and think my life was worthless. This all lead up to my Aspergers diagnosis at 18, Dec 2006. But then my parents refused to believe it and I mindlessly took there view. The school counseler gave me a aspergers and girls book which I still think to this day is horrible. I wish I had been given Aspergirls.