Apple_in_my_Eye
I don't remember
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| RadicalDreamers wrote: | | NeueZiel wrote: | -6.8
Well, I was ready to go out and run, went to they key rack at noticed our car keys were not on them. We have a houserule where whoever last used the car always racks them so they don't get misplaced. I knock on my parents' door and am pretty mad because ever since my sister has been staying the keys have NEVER been on the rack and she tells me to shut up each time I tell her to rack them. As I'm knocking my sister comes out and tells me angrily that there is no gas in the car (she used it of course despite her boyfriend having a gas guzzling SUV parked in our yard) and then I told her that we have certain rules in this house she has to adhere to while she's here and that she can't just keep the car keys locked with her in the bacrkoom when she falls asleep. She tells me I'm a b***h and can go to hell, that this isn't her house and I have zero authority over her and that its too late for me to go out to run to which I inform her I've been doing this every night since BEFORE she came to stay and for her to put the keys on the rack.
My dad comes out next, screaming at me, tells me to stop being a selfish little b***h like I always am and to stop humiliating everyone. I try to tell him I know my sister left no gas in the car but I would like the keys to be put on their proper rack so they are not lost, I'm mega OCD about that since my SISTER HAS LOST THE KEYS BEFORE WHEN SHE LIVED WITH US. Dad doesn't listen to me, his mouth frothing practically, then he hits me and causes me to fall straight into my the back end of my bedstead. Then tells me that if I don't shut the hell up he'll never forgive me and slams the door. Of course when I fell back he called me a lying c**t who "fell on purpose" and I'm sure that's going to be his defense in the morning. No one will care anyway. |
Damn, that sucks. I'm really sorry to hear about all of that.  |
^^ Ah geeze; yeah, I agree. Family can sure be a special kind of insanity-making sometimes. |
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RadicalDreamers
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Age: 31
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Location: presently, Earth
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| Posted: Thu Jun 21, 2012 8:59 pm Post subject: |
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| Apple_in_my_Eye wrote: | | RadicalDreamers wrote: | | NeueZiel wrote: | -6.8
Well, I was ready to go out and run, went to they key rack at noticed our car keys were not on them. We have a houserule where whoever last used the car always racks them so they don't get misplaced. I knock on my parents' door and am pretty mad because ever since my sister has been staying the keys have NEVER been on the rack and she tells me to shut up each time I tell her to rack them. As I'm knocking my sister comes out and tells me angrily that there is no gas in the car (she used it of course despite her boyfriend having a gas guzzling SUV parked in our yard) and then I told her that we have certain rules in this house she has to adhere to while she's here and that she can't just keep the car keys locked with her in the bacrkoom when she falls asleep. She tells me I'm a b***h and can go to hell, that this isn't her house and I have zero authority over her and that its too late for me to go out to run to which I inform her I've been doing this every night since BEFORE she came to stay and for her to put the keys on the rack.
My dad comes out next, screaming at me, tells me to stop being a selfish little b***h like I always am and to stop humiliating everyone. I try to tell him I know my sister left no gas in the car but I would like the keys to be put on their proper rack so they are not lost, I'm mega OCD about that since my SISTER HAS LOST THE KEYS BEFORE WHEN SHE LIVED WITH US. Dad doesn't listen to me, his mouth frothing practically, then he hits me and causes me to fall straight into my the back end of my bedstead. Then tells me that if I don't shut the hell up he'll never forgive me and slams the door. Of course when I fell back he called me a lying c**t who "fell on purpose" and I'm sure that's going to be his defense in the morning. No one will care anyway. |
Damn, that sucks. I'm really sorry to hear about all of that. |
^^ Ah geeze; yeah, I agree. Family can sure be a special kind of insanity-making sometimes. |
Agreed, it is never easy especially when family serves to further contribute to the already difficult life experiences people must endure. The human experience especially these days can be quite a trip. In my life, some of the most problematic and equally traumatic experiences gave me great perspective. At times, when I was at my worst there was but one way for me to go. Forward, no matter what. It also made me far stronger than expected. Empowering. |
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NeueZiel
Seņorita Gamera
Joined: Apr 29, 2012
Posts: 1246
Location: Kapustin Yar
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Thank you so much everyone for responding and caring, I don't like attention mongering but it makes me feel better to post here and even more good to see people are concerned. You're all very kind. And no this physical thing isn't a regular occurrence, I use to get slapped a few times when I was younger but not frequently. Of course everything was all dandy today like nothing had happened, I don't have any bruises so I'm just glad people weren't given me silent treatment. I'm always ready to move on from a big fight after my recovery period but always hate it when other people involved let their feelings linger as a way to punish you. Thankfully that wasn't the case this time.
-.07
I feel very eh. I was hoping I would be able to sneak out to the track tonight since my parents put a little bit of gas in the car but I checked the key rack an hour ago, getting ready and it was gone. Alright great, take precautions against me wanting to go do what makes me feel better..the place isn't even 5 miles away. GOTTA SAVE MONEY THOUGH *pregnant sister and mom buy cartoon of cigs*
Was going to try to be productive, do more reading and work on practicing my math(not enrolled in any classes aside from my painting thing, I just want to get good at math). I opted to give myself a day off and looked through some of my D&D books, trying to re-learn stuff. My parents and sister want to play and I'm creating a silly but fun campaign for them, they've already picked what classes they want and I'm trying to think of ways to make it enjoyable, gamey but not too...unforgiving or meta-y. Only my sister has played D&D before and it was a long time ago, I'm the only "nerd" but everyone is interested. Sister picked a druid,Mom a sorcerer, sister's boyfriend a monk, and Dad will be a paladin He likes westerns and saw the name "Paladin" in the sourcebook and just had to make one, he loves that show.
Looking forward to working on dungeon maps, I even have graph paper..but remembering all the dice stuff is kind of giving me a headache. I like it since its the "gamey" part of D&D but its just daunting trying to grasp enough of it to have a decent game when you've only played once and someone else was DMing using my books. |
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Sweetleaf
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Joined: Jan 07, 2011
Age: 23
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Location: Somewhere in Colorado
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| Posted: Sat Jun 23, 2012 12:52 am Post subject: |
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Yeah screw it I mean in reality there is no realalistic way for me to make enough income to live on so why the hell do I even try to keep going? for the non-existant thrill.
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johnny77
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Age: 35
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| +4 running crazily about the house working |
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johnny77
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| Sweetleaf wrote: | | Yeah screw it I mean in reality there is no realistic way for me to make enough income to live on so why the hell do I even try to keep going? for the non-existent thrill. |
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NeueZiel
Seņorita Gamera
Joined: Apr 29, 2012
Posts: 1246
Location: Kapustin Yar
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| Posted: Sat Jun 23, 2012 9:30 pm Post subject: |
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Stayed up last night doing math problems in my book until sunrise, went to sleep, got in the afternoon, did my reading and then fixed myself the last of my sweet potatoes. Started working on math again in the kitchen, but my sister was pretty disruptive, even her boyfriend was as well. I feel bad because when she came here everyone was happy because of the "good" news and how nice she was behaving but it seems it is impossible for my sister to ever leave on good terms, ever. We all feel like were hostages in the house at this point and she's ALWAYS cooking, it irritates me to no end. Doing math at 3 am? Oh here she comes to fix something with a strong smell. The worst part is when I'm trying to concentrate and she harasses me about wanting anything, which she knows the answer to: I'm a very picky eater and never eat the stuff she likes, she purposely does it to be spiteful. In fact the food she cooks makes me feel nauseous with its strong, pungent smell.
"Aw want me to fix you some of this too?"
"No."
"You sure? I'm fixing a lot, you can have a bit don't be shy!"
"No thanks."
"Oh it smells so good, want to have a sniff? Come take a smell?"
"Busy. Not interested."
Then she'll go use my annoyed response as an excuse to act aggressive, or to prove I'm sowing dissension. This is only a sample of stuff she does. I actually want to work on more math now but had to take a break because of her and the kitchen stinks like whatever she just finished cooking  . I fear that when she finally does leave she will be on bad terms with everyone else. She's also gone back to yelling at my parents whenever they voice any grievances to her, for very reasonable things. Gee, she sure wasn't like that over a week ago (it feels like its been two weeks). Everyone's relationship with her is steadily deteriorating. Everyone was happy, wanted to help her, I'd ride in the car with her to the store. I talked and sat in the living room with sister and her bf. We would watch movies, even toked a few times, which I rarely ever do.
Now I have little desire to leave my room. The first thing I do now is my reading, which I use to save for the evening. I also feel crappy because I haven't been able to go out to jog ever since she came. We're out of money now and the gas in our car and their SUV are both nearly empty. What burns me how my sister, a visitor and someone who prior to all of this was on very, very bad terms with us all, has the nerve to hide my parent's car keys FROM ME so I don't sneak out to run and use precious gas. The track is maybe 4 miles away and I probably wouldn't go anyway, but there's so much hypocrisy because the second she needs cigs or junk food she immediately gets into the car and is gone. "Oh the gas station is close, its no big deal. I NEED THESE." The gas station she goes to is actually farther than the track.
I pointed this out to my parents but they told me to shut up, to not start a fight and confirmed that yes everyone is tired of those two in our house. But this is how my parents deal with her. I guess there's not much to do.
I'm almost on the verge of a meltdown, probably going to go take a xanax or something. I can't even think in peace because the two of them are SO loud and always watching tv in the living room. |
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sagan
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Location: Land of the Lost
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Lately it feels like my life is one huge panic attack. Arg.
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puddingmouse
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-4 with IBS
+4 if I didn't have it
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TenPencePiece
Curiosity Killed the Cone
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Cautiously, +2
Hoping for good July
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Sweetleaf
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Location: Somewhere in Colorado
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It was about a -4, but now I'd say it's more like -20...
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NeueZiel
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Location: Kapustin Yar
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2.3
Had a productive night but not after several fairly big fights in the morning. I had a terrible meltdown and became hysterical, insulting everyone. My mood improved after getting back to my math then I fell to sleep around 8 pm. I woke up, noticeably refreshed, around 3 pm and saw some grapes sitting in a bowl and helped myself to some delicious sugar finally. We haven't had fruit in the house for a week ever since my sister gave our apples to Grandma. Did some more reading, enjoying my book and now I'm sitting around at the computer, musing on things while listening to the Bauhaus. Want to work on some more math but I REALLY don't want to be spoken to by my sister or her boyfriend, their mere presence now makes me feel agitated and on edge. |
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johnny77
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Age: 35
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| +2 not to bad not really good just is |
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HisDivineMajesty
Carolingian Emperor Extraordinaire
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Location: Planet Earth
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One of those nights when I can't sleep, even though I'm tired beyond belief.
Could be worse - the temperature in my bedroom is comfortable after being scorching for a week. |
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johnny77
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| -4 really wanted some thing I cant have no more |
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