xxZeromancerlovexx
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Location: Falling by the wayside...
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All because I'm a girl going into the gaming industry does not mean I'm going to play Nintendogs and help little girls find cutesy little DS games.
I have every right and reason to play "the games guys play". So shut up and let me play my Skyrim and Resistance!!!!
After all, I am "one of the guys" right?!!!
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Almajo88
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Joined: Jun 29, 2010
Age: 24
Posts: 76
Location: Liverpool, UK
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Only just saw this sorry, figured I should type a response... idk, I have trouble really talking to people in the first place, like I have every intention of being sociable but I always hit the same problems:
1) I don't have anything to talk about or any real interests, let alone ones in common;
2) Even if I do, I feel like if I say anything that isn't blandly related to an immediate task (ie. college work) that people will hate me or I just won't make any sense;
3) I think people will neglect me or abandon me immediately once I'm of no social use to them;
4) I act like I hate people because it's a convenient way of dealing with the fact that I think people hate me/don't want to be hurt by people;
5) I think I have something like BDD, I often end up being late by like an hour or so because I see myself in the mirror or w/e and lose confidence, try on all my clothes and just end up lying in a pile on the bed crying and trying to pretend that nothing exists. Often I don't want people to take any notice of me or see my face for that reason, and defend myself by not speaking or saying anything of note.
I used to feel like I could improve myself but I have so many compound problems that it feels impossible. It's difficult to focus on anything else, too. I'm incredibly stressed out right now because I'm in the last month of college and the grades I get are going to determine which university I get in to, and I feel like if I don't do well I'll be losing the only thing that makes me worth anything as a person.
e: to add a little more ranting to this, I just had the WORST DAY. Spent a couple of hours doing the aforementioned mirror thing and completely missing my chance to go in and get work done, then I got back home and my neighbour was playing THE LOUDEST MUSIC I HAVE EVER HEARD. No, really, the bass was making me feel ill. So I left to my parents' house and my brother was giving abuse and making threats at my parents, including threatening to punch my dad, then he said I was "just a spaz"... let's just say we all ended up talking to the police. Brother really needs to go to the hospital but he refuses to stay in. Now I'm back home I should be better but I'm just fretting the possibility that there will be more noise :/ |
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CyclopsSummers
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Joined: Jun 22, 2008
Age: 26
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| Posted: Thu May 17, 2012 11:52 pm Post subject: |
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I wasn't originally going to reply to anyone in this thread, but I can relate to what you guys (Almajo and Colinn) are saying here.
I just woke up from a dream in which I had struck up a friendship with someone I see quite regularly at work (though we don't have much of a social contact between us). The dream was one of those very LIFELIKE ones, not very surreal, and went on for a while, so that kind of worsens it.
The point is that I, too, don't have a lot of friends. I have one friend and one acquaintance. I should consider it wealth that I have friends at all at this point (I met them both about 2 years ago), but sometimes I think I may not appreciate them enough. I don't quite know what it is; in the past, friends and even relatives have turned their back on me or we've otherwise parted ways, and as a result, I feel this kind of social anxiety about getting to know anyone. They say "A stranger is a friend you haven't met yet", but I keep in mind the possibility that if I let anyone too close, they might hurt me (or I might hurt them with my social cluelessness and awkwardness).
I've sometimes been going to social events and hobby clubs, in part with the intention of meeting new people. This is also how I met my 2 current friends. But otherwise, I find it very, very, very difficult to connect with anyone.
But now, after this dream, and some other issues of the brain, it almost feels like I'm going slightly insane because of my failure to smoothly interact with other folks.
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Albirea
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DogOfJudah
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Joined: May 01, 2012
Age: 25
Posts: 345
Location: Staffordshire, UK
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If the worst comes to the worst, someone is going to die
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Senath
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Joined: May 17, 2012
Posts: 357
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They stopped covering the birth control pill Yazmin that I was using under my health insurance. They substituted with Ocella, and I took it and it f**** me up all over the place. My hair started falling out, I felt absolutely nauseous for about 6 -8 hours a day, my right breast became extraordinarily tender, and my emotions spiraled out of control. I'm on an antidepressant in the first place, because I'm prone to interpreting cognitive stimuli negatively, but this was an absolute hell. I wouldn't wish my absurd takeover of emotions in place of reason on anyone.
So i quit after a couple of weeks and now I have to go back to condoms and their percent failure rate is so much higher than the pill. And on top of that I have insanity-inducingly painful menstruation symptoms which Yazmin really helped dampen. Now I have to experience that nightmare every month again. |
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NeueZiel
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Joined: Apr 29, 2012
Posts: 1246
Location: Kapustin Yar
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There's a f***ing reason I go to the track at ungodly hours and immediatly abort my running and LEAVE when I see someone pulling up late at night:
f***ing rude walkers who think they own the track. You see those lines? You're suppose to be on the outer ones, or you two can maybe walk BEHIND each other. I know it sounds like I'm being a petty dick (I am) but nothing sucks more than to be sweating up a storm, getting your run rhythm down then suddenly having to hit brakes and do a loop around someone so you don't slam into them. The rude looks you get either way are "great". I'm going to buy an alarm clock and start setting it for 2 or 3 am. I have social issues so I don't like others to be around while I'm running and can always avoid folks at those hours, before 2 or after 3:50 am its a gamble.
This is also why I avoid running in the evening or late afternoon, all the stares you get for f***ing jogging like it pisses people off while they walk and socialize on the track. Like "Oh gee...great...one of them, we've got to pay attention now..thanks as*hole  ." |
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Uprising
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Joined: Jan 10, 2012
Posts: 2920
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| Posted: Tue May 22, 2012 5:34 am Post subject: |
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| NeueZiel wrote: | There's a f***ing reason I go to the track at ungodly hours and immediatly abort my running and LEAVE when I see someone pulling up late at night:
f***ing rude walkers who think they own the track. You see those lines? You're suppose to be on the outer ones, or you two can maybe walk BEHIND each other. I know it sounds like I'm being a petty dick (I am) but nothing sucks more than to be sweating up a storm, getting your run rhythm down then suddenly having to hit brakes and do a loop around someone so you don't slam into them. The rude looks you get either way are "great". I'm going to buy an alarm clock and start setting it for 2 or 3 am. I have social issues so I don't like others to be around while I'm running and can always avoid folks at those hours, before 2 or after 3:50 am its a gamble.
This is also why I avoid running in the evening or late afternoon, all the stares you get for f***ing jogging like it pisses people off while they walk and socialize on the track. Like "Oh gee...great...one of them, we've got to pay attention now..thanks as*hole ." |
Be glad you don't have to deal with racing bicyclists, horseriders, people walking their furious dogs and f***ing cars (not to mention having to watch out for dog and horse poo too). I gave up running a long time ago because of "yes you can guess it": other people. Well I did the running in the forest after all. |
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Declension
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Posts: 1653
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I hate the tricks that certain people use in their attempts to popularise mathematics. I'm not some elitist who thinks that mathematics needs to be arcane nonsense that is inaccessible to the public, but there are certain tricks of omission and sloppiness that I believe totally betray the spirit of mathematics, and result in the public not really understanding why mathematics is interesting in the first place.
My most hated pop-maths slogan is "we define i to be the square root of -1". This gives off the impression that mathematicians are allowed to do whatever they like, and therefore gives the impression that mathematics is just a word game. It would be much more honest to say "there is a number system called the complex number system, which contains the real number system as a subsystem, and in which there is a number i such that i^2 = -1". Is that really more complicated? In some ways, it is actually simpler.
Another thing that I dislike is the furthering of the idea that mathematics is "about" numbers. This is very misleading. For one thing, most mathematics is not "about" numbers, and only uses numbers as a convenient labeling system. And even if you are a number theorist, you are not studying "numbers"; you are studying certain algebraic objects up to isomorphism. The interesting thing about the natural numbers, for instance, is the ordering on them, from which we can derive the concepts of addition and multiplication. If we didn't have this ordering, there would be nothing special about the natural numbers. They would just be some set which has countably infinite cardinality. By the same token, the theory of natural numbers would apply equally well to any ordered set of the same isomorphism type, such as the set of all possible words which use the Latin alphabet. |
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FalsettoTesla
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Joined: Oct 31, 2011
Posts: 531
Location: North of North
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| Posted: Tue May 22, 2012 3:30 pm Post subject: |
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STOP ALL THE NOISE.
I HATE ALL THE THINGS.
I wish I had somewhere comfy and safe, but no. SHUT UP, SHUT UP, SHUT UP. |
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J-Greens
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Joined: Oct 20, 2011
Posts: 669
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| Posted: Tue May 22, 2012 7:20 pm Post subject: |
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So f***ing furious over some f***ing HR f***ing blind bastard who thought it would be a f***ing great idea to f***ing re-start some f***ing pointless training with less than 24 hours notice to sit in some f***ing stuffed up room when the f***ing weather has finally, FINALLY turned f***ing decent for three, THREE f***ing hours in the middle of the morning, and as for the senior who as a favour I worked over SEVENTEEN HOURS OVER THE WEEKEND, what the f**k do you call this sh**, I scratch your back, you scratch mine, you dumb f***ing moron and I thought you were fairly f***ing decent.
There. I'm getting absolutely steaming for this waste of f***ing time tomorrow morning and if they want to complain they can f**k off. Or they'll be getting a free trip to A & f***ing E - and I'll make sure the f***ing nurses there give them hell - because they also owe me favours. |
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puddingmouse
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Age: 26
Posts: 7043
Location: Mega City 3
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| Posted: Tue May 22, 2012 7:25 pm Post subject: |
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I will not talk to you again. You are negativity personified. I have a high tolerance for negativity, but you broke it. You have permanent PMS, even though you are a man.
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J-Greens
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I shouldn't reply. I really shouldn't. But, you clearly like to start a fight, and I'm looking for ANY OPPORTUNITY RIGHT NOW...so ding ding, capache?
First off, this is called the Rants thread for Ranting in a (Supposedly) safe environment - so what do you think messages are going to be? Happy? Cheerful? No, einstein.
Secondly, did you look outside today? 27c, cloudless, warm and sunny. Perfect in other words. Have I complained about today? No. I'm complaining because some blind, senseless person decided to be a jobsworth and a killjoy and force my attendance to a training session, I do not need, require or have ever attended in my current employment - which stands at over 4 years - in some stuffy, crowded office at the other side of town for three hours with less than 24hrs notice. I made plans for tomorrow morning. Those included:
Making pancakes.
Showering the dog
Walking the dog in the park.
Going round with the morning paper to my elderly nan for a cup of tea and chat.
Going to town with my friends.
All positive, feel good, independent activities that I enjoy. Taken away from me without due notice. How am I supposed to feel now? Happy? That I wil not see my nan till Friday?
Thirdly, I usually enjoy the company of my seniors. They're a great example of people who actively try and make an effort to not appear to be authoritive and bitchy. As such we staff are happy to help them out when needed, because we know they care & we'll get a favour or two in return. It's called a healthy working partnership.
On Friday morning, I received a call saying that cover was short over the weekend and if I could help out, it'd be really appreciated and I'd get a couple of favours in return. I happily accepted this deal, after all, I knew I'll get those favours repaid when neccessary. So I did the long and double shifts over the weekend to help the team. So when I get a phone call, that railroad's me into an un-neccessary training session without an opportunity for a later course without due notice, I do feel a bit angry at this treatment - considering I saved there bacon over the weekend. They didn't want to come in over the weekend and I proposed the long and double shifts that meant they could stay at home with new-born relatives. Is it wrong, that I expect my favours to be repaid likewise?
I feel my emotions are accurately described above. Because I expect common sense and favours to be repaid when earnt.
You're quite lucky that I'm still quite restrained despite drinking doubles... |
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puddingmouse
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Location: Mega City 3
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| Posted: Wed May 23, 2012 6:10 pm Post subject: |
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I wasn't talking to you. I was ranting at someone who won't read this board.
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J-Greens
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| Posted: Wed May 23, 2012 7:21 pm Post subject: |
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Oh. Sorry.
I should really be asleep since I have work in less than six hours... |
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