johnny77
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| Gnonymouse wrote: |
Make sure the amount of Diazepam is going down, no up. A benzo addiction is worse than alcohol in some ways. Good luck, the first few weeks are hell but it gets better quickly after that. |
The Dr. has wrote the Rx so that tapers off by the third week. Still dry with more of a habit urge than an addiction urge to drink as It was my last ditch effort to sleep most the time. With out less sleep 1-2 hours instead of 2-4 per night that the booze would gain me. At least the Chloral Hydratestarted working getting 4 hours a night at lest till the Rx is done.
Thanks for the support so far And I"m hear to lend a "hand or an ear" when needed. |
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Gnonymouse
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| I went through the less than 1 hour sleep a night for a week withdrawal. It is hell when combined with all the other symptoms. It's good you did it with a Dr. to prescribe benzos to avoid seizures. After the Rx if you can't sleep, don't drink but ask the Dr. about a long-term solution. If you really are committed to it, you can avoid a relapse, just never keep alcohol in your house is my advice. Hope your recovery goes quickly! |
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johnny77
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| Posted: Fri Jun 22, 2012 1:09 am Post subject: |
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I spoke to soon one a half hours sleep last night.  |
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johnny77
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| Posted: Sat Jun 23, 2012 6:28 pm Post subject: |
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Nearly done with the first course of medications really don't have urges to drink during the day just at night when I cant sleep.
Haven't touched a drop and its ten foot away in the cupboard. |
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johnny77
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| Posted: Sun Jun 24, 2012 11:47 pm Post subject: |
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All most slipped up had it poured till I realized what I was doing poured all I had left down the drain.  |
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Gnonymouse
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| Posted: Tue Jun 26, 2012 6:31 pm Post subject: |
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| johnny77 wrote: | | All most slipped up had it poured till I realized what I was doing poured all I had left down the drain. |
Good job, stick with it! Consider it a victory.  But talk to your doc if you aren't getting any sleep. |
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johnny77
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| Posted: Tue Jun 26, 2012 6:46 pm Post subject: |
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| Gnonymouse wrote: | | johnny77 wrote: | | All most slipped up had it poured till I realized what I was doing poured all I had left down the drain. |
Good job, stick with it! Consider it a victory. But talk to your doc if you aren't getting any sleep. |
Still not but cant take the only thing that works for me besides alcohol till I am off every thing Rx. Midazolam and propofol very dangerous by it self deadly mixed with other drugs. |
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Shhkids
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Yay, i think i've finally gotten to the point where smoking weed has become more effort than it's worth.
When i first tried weed back when i was about 16 i remember feeling that i just wanted to get the experience over and get back to feeling in control. Then i tried it again when i was 23 and because of various changes in my life the experience became much better and i actually started to prefer being stoned to reality.
Steadily over the last few years though i've been getting closer and closer to giving up as my tolerance has built up and ive got less and less from the experience,. The last few months and i think im really really starting to get annoyed with it and the feeling of being clear headed and not having had any has been getting preferable to the half stoned that seems to be my norm these days. Finally today i had plenty of money to spare, i went to the place i buy from, i gave the guy my money, got my weed, then i changed my mind and got my money back and instead went and bought a load of chocolate/munchies instead. That's really good for me, for me to choose nice food over getting stoned is a real step and possibly signals a real change in my attitude towards it. It just doesn't seem worth it anymore. |
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johnny77
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| Posted: Thu Jun 28, 2012 9:47 pm Post subject: |
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Rx has run out I am fine so far no urge to drink but getting depressed don't know if its the drugs wearing off or just life beating me down. I hate life right now. Vacation is coming up soon and I hope it helps if it doesn't don't know what Ill do.
Sorry needed to vent have no one here at home I can talk to about this type problem.
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mrsjohnny
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[quote="johnny77"]Rx has run out I am fine so far no urge to drink but getting depressed don't know if its the drugs wearing off or just life beating me down. I hate life right now. Vacation is coming up soon and I hope it helps if it doesn't don't know what Ill do.
Sorry needed to vent have no one here at home I can talk to about this type problem.[quote="johnny77"]
I forget that you are even human some times. Why would I even think you could even die you have ben stabbed,shoved out a third story window, starved, frozen, threw from a moving car, heck you have even ran in to a light pole at 120 on motor cycle and all ways walk away you dont even have scars cause the way you heal. If you could hold your first girl friends hand as she lay dieing what could be bugging you so bad now. Is it because you couldnt make yore breakfast with out crushing the eggs as you got them out of the carton. Because you body is showing some wear now youre sad. You have on heck of a gardian angle and youre sad. You the one Ive watched go to 3 funerals for suicides of friends Why you would even entertain the idea I dont get you at all. You can talk to me about any thing You know this so what you mean no one at home to talk to. |
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johnny77
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| Posted: Sat Jun 30, 2012 9:13 pm Post subject: |
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I forget that you are even human some times. Why would I even think you could even die you have ben stabbed,shoved out a third story window, starved, frozen, threw from a moving car, heck you have even ran in to a light pole at 120 on motor cycle and all ways walk away you dont even have scars cause the way you heal. If you could hold your first girl friends hand as she lay dieing what could be bugging you so bad now. Is it because you couldnt make yore breakfast with out crushing the eggs as you got them out of the carton. Because you body is showing some wear now youre sad. You have on heck of a gardian angle and youre sad. You the one Ive watched go to 3 funerals for suicides of friends Why you would even entertain the idea I dont get you at all. You can talk to me about any thing You know this so what you mean no one at home to talk to. |
Do you feel some one can't be strong and weak at the same time. What happens when luck or as you put it guardian angel fail? I cant keep getting lucky forever. No I am not being sad for my body. Past ghosts are creeping in to my exhausted mind and yes I held her hand and so many other event coming up in to my mind. With out sleep I cant cope but you wouldn't understand lack of sleep you get 8 hours every night. May be I am just trying to hold on what little is left of my soul. May be I'm still there holding her hand 20 years later. |
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johnny77
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| Posted: Tue Jul 03, 2012 10:15 pm Post subject: |
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| Dry done with all drugs Rx or not still cant sleep but hope that will pass on its own. |
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YourMajesty
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| I sometimes use alcohol as a way to relieve stress and be able te sleep. In some heavily stressed periods getting slightly drunk at night has helped me through, it isn't ALL bad. Not healthy, but otherwise I would've crashed earlier. I do watch myself however, I never get actually drunk, nor do I enjoy that, and any form of addiction is the last thing I want. |
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Gnonymouse
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| johnny77 wrote: | | Dry done with all drugs Rx or not still cant sleep but hope that will pass on its own. |
I couldn't sleep until I got put on mirtazapine. It's a non-narcotic anti-depressant that also helps me sleep. Maybe you could look into it.
I understand sometimes it's hard to talk to people who haven't been through withdrawal, maybe look for an AA group in your area. |
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johnny77
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| Posted: Sat Jul 07, 2012 11:26 pm Post subject: |
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| Gnonymouse wrote: | | johnny77 wrote: | | Dry done with all drugs Rx or not still cant sleep but hope that will pass on its own. |
I couldn't sleep until I got put on mirtazapine. It's a non-narcotic anti-depressant that also helps me sleep. Maybe you could look into it.
I understand sometimes it's hard to talk to people who haven't been through withdrawal, maybe look for an AA group in your area. |
I'm not public with my problems other than on here. Hope I don't sound to much like a whiner. I had the biggest melt down of my life the other day and have been asleep for I think two day I'm not even really sure what day it is. I really wanted to drink the other day but knew I would not have stopped at the bottom of a litter bottle or two, would have had such a self pity moment would have caused alcohol poisoning or sugar coma.
Ive tried several different anti depressant in the past some made me hyper mirtazapine being one of them. mean while welburtrin made me so slow my even though I felt like I was moving fast I was way to slow dangerous to drive but felt good alive inside and thoughts were less"cluttered". |
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