aqualoy wrote:
yep! unfortunately Ian, the drugs did most of the damage. when i finish work i go home and get lost in time, exept for tv which keeps me semi aware of reality. When i'm off, its a real nightmare, i can't even get out of my room in case i bump into housemate and have to say hello or make small talk. going out gets worst. actualy, this is so weird! i've never revealed this to anyone and feel really strange talking about it. better stop for now so i can get my head around the fact i've started talking about it.
I actually didn't seem to realise that it was a nightmare doing an everyday life, i only feel like that with new people I don't know, yet at least on the brightside I got the guts to at least say hello back but I weirdly find that kinda scary at times and it only got like this when my girlfriend had depression and it started affecting me in so many ways that I've suddenly started being scared to talk to people plus being called all sorts of names whenever I was at woolworths. Bad times.
I sometimes avoid phone calls at times because I just don't like talking on the phone in general, I dunno why but there is something about it that gives me this uncomfortable feeling inside but I do prefer to ring... Especially with my girlfriend which i've told you about which ain't going so well at the moment due to some love problem and conflicts.
I have to admit, when I joined this site back at september, in some ways, I have improved and somehow gained more confidence.
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