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Thanks for welcoming me, artfulldodger! Oliver Twist is a great book!

Occasionally, I visit the Kahn Academy website, in a futile attempt to learn some math, but I think I'm still not very good at it! I only wish I was!

North Conway on Google Maps looks like it's almost in line with Cabot, Vermont. I know lots of people there, and visited there every year when I was a child. It's about a four hour drive from where I've lived most of my life, near Albany. I guess we're kind of like old neighbors.

I've only been to Maine once or twice. Beautiful shoreline! Once, when I was there helping a friend move, we decided to buy lobsters out of the back of a truck, parked on the side of the road. She bought one, and I bought two. One to eat, and one to set free. lol. I'm such a dork.

The one lobster was very relieved, though!

Thank you for the encouragement. I will try to stick around and do lots of reading.

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Hi, Bald-Accountant! I do sort of agree with you that it's not necessary to define people by what they do. If I defined myself that way when I introduced myself to people, I would have to tell them I was nothing, because I haven't worked since 2005. Ha ha. But in your case, if you love your work, then it tells people a little bit about what makes you happy, and I don't think there's anything wrong with that at all! Maybe there are people also, who don't really like their work, but are very proud of what they do, or something. And so I think it's okay in those instances. If people don't want to be defined by their work, they can always describe themselves in different ways.

I desperately tried to learn Excel a year or two ago, by reading the tutorial online. Some of it I understood, and some I did not, so I can't say I ever completely grasped it. Which is kind of unfortunate, because many of the jobs I was thinking of applying to required a good understanding of Excel. But I now know enough about it to understand what your saying. Excel can help with the figuring! And I suppose if I was able to learn programs like that, maybe math wouldn't be so intimidating for me!

I was always jealous of people who are very good with numbers in their head! Seems like a very useful skill.

I see what you're saying about the variety among accountants being a positive thing. That makes a lot of sense. I tend to focus on details, and not the big picture, also. It never occurred to me that I could just have someone with the opposite skills check my work! Genius.

The truth about my art is that I haven't really done much of it at all for the last 18 years, or so. And most of what I have for examples, are pieces that I did for art classes, and not really subjects of my choosing. So, looking around at what I've put on my walls in my studio, I guess I'm seeing mostly still lifes, and mostly charcoal, and mostly sort of realistic, and not abstract at all. I actually think abstract is not easy, and I steer clear of it. I don't know when it's done, or if it looks nice! ha ha. And that's not to say that I can't appreciate someone else's abstract piece! They always seem to look finished and nice when someone else does them. It is a mystery to me.

I haven't really settled on any one particular medium, but I think for now I'm going to be working with mostly watercolors, or pen and ink. I've always really enjoyed stippling, and may work on some of those, this year.

But the art I'm making to try and sell this winter isn't what I really want to do, it's just to see if I can actually sell anything! I'm kind of making art that's easy, just to see what happens.

What I really want to do (maybe starting next year) is to start doing mixed media (that means not settling on one medium, like ink, but using whatever I want in a piece, all together) that incorporates the use of trash, more "natural" art supplies, like red ochre, or seeds, or wood, bone or clay, and probably precious stones and metals.

I'm not doing that this year, because I don't have some of the supplies, and the money I set aside for it I lent to someone in need. When that gets paid back, I can buy my new supplies, and get on with my real work. Until then, I'm just really brushing up, I think. Ha ha. Brushing up.

I can relate to the therapy bills! I was in therapy a while back, and one of the main reasons I stopped going was the bills! But I guess it's time to think about going again. Taking hikes is one of my favorite things to do. Have you heard of the ice age trail? Wish I could hike it, but I am old and achy.

I also prefer documentaries, and non-fiction books are my favorite. And maps, too. I think I've only ever known one other person that said they loved maps, and I don't think they meant that they would sit and look at them for long periods of time, like I would, just for fun. I always thought I was weird.

Somehow, I think I just did tell you more about me! I have to post this now, this site is not showing me what I type as I type it, and it's driving me crazzzzy! lol. I don't think I've ever been on a site this slow to respond. I will have to type on my pc writing program, from now on, and copy and paste! Note to self. . .

Thanks, BeaArthur! I haven't looked at the art here, yet. I do have a scanner, so maybe I could post something, one of these days. For some reason, I just never feel like I'm a 'real' artist, and I don't feel like I would ever fit in with other artists. But maybe I'll get brave . . .

I was so frustrated by the slow performance of the website, that I forgot to answer your questions about my family, Bald-Accountant. Sorry. I went into the internet, and installed an ad blocking program, which seems to be working, and I can type now, without the screen freezing every time I type a space. Phew.

It's a little difficult for me to answer what kind of family I come from, because I have been having some crazy memory issues since around 2001, I think, and my brains are filled up every day with memories that I don't completely trust as being true. I mostly just answer people with the most reasonable answer, which doesn't involve the new memories. So as to avoid any confusion, though, it's like I have two different sets of memories of my childhood. One that seems pretty normal, and I accept as being 'real', and one that is absolutely crazy, and I sort of dismiss as being like a dream my brain is making up every day. It's very interesting to watch, but probably not true.

The 'real' version is that I come from a nuclear family of one father, one mother, and one older sister. My parents are still married, even though they have always fought with each other, and didn't seem super happy to stick it out. My sister and I don't currently really get along. Which is unfortunate, but not surprising, since I don't seem to get along with many people, and she has some aggressive personality traits, and bad habits in the community, she's carried since childhood that I have trouble ignoring.

When I was around nine years old, we moved to the mountains, and so I grew up living a rural life, taking care of rabbits, and lugging armloads of wood into the house for the wood stove. My father always worked, even though he didn't care much for the social aspects of working, because he thought it was important to provide for his family.

My mother mostly was a stay at home mom until I was a teenager. Then she was self employed cleaning houses for a while. She was more creative than my father, and taught me to sew (what I bothered to learn!), and encouraged my artistic side, even to the point of signing up for classes with me. She also served as the leader of our own 4-H club.

My parents also both home-schooled me during fifth and some of sixth grade, when I was having a lot of problems coping with school. So they did a lot for me that I do appreciate.

However, there was a lot of fighting, as I said before, mostly between my parents, or my parents and my sister, so I think I spent a lot of time out in the woods by the stream, or in my room, or hanging out with our animals, as a child.

The other 'version' of my family growing up is really too crazy to get into, and I don't really believe it. It tells me that my father is really my step brother, who agreed to raise me because my true father was elderly, and died when I was little. And that my biological mother is someone completely different, who I rarely was able to see. And that my sister is not my sister, at all. And that her father is not even my step brother father . . . and everything was a lie, and just pretend that they were my family.

That version of events says my childhood was filled with severe abuse, neglect, and numerous institutionalization's.

But since that all seems very unlikely, and since I've tried to verify other 'memories' that sometimes people have not been able to confirm, I prefer to think of them as like a bizarre dream that I can't shut off in my head for some reason.

So when I talk about 'my family' that I was raised in, I guess it's a smidge confusing.

Now I am married to my second husband. (Uh . . . going with the 'normal' memories, he's my second! ha ha ha.) I have one son, (again . . . 'normal' memories say so!) and he is now an adult, and lives on his own. So yes, I'm a parent, too. Even though I'm a very confused one!

Please try to ignore the strangeness of this answer, I'm trying to be as honest as possible. The truth is, I'm not 100% sure about my memories, which makes talking about the past kind of a minefield for me! I hope I answered your questions all right. Sorry for sounding like a nut case!

Take care.

Thanks, Cat!

Plain jane
I can t remember if you like art or dont like it but were pushed into it, but when you talk about it, you make it seem fun/intersting which is cool.

I think you have inspired me to give more of a life's story. I have given large chunks of it, but not the whole thing.

Look forward to seeing more posts from you. it is hard to tell from one topic, but I think you are a likable person.

I am sorry if it is creepy me posting a lot here, but being an accountant is not all glamour. sometimes I surf the web a little while I am waiting for slow computers to run reports. Plus I do think you must be a neat person.

I myself have a very low self esteem. I usually assume the worst about myself. I think I am finally beginning to maybe partially turn a little bit of a corner in that area, but I have a very long way to go. My wonderful wife asks me why do you have to be so hard on yourself. I am not sure why, I have never found the off switch for negativity.

If I find it, I will publish the location on this site first, so stay tuned and please stick around.

Hi Plainjain,

I found the account of your family very readable and interesting. You have nothing to apologize for.

Welcome! Don't sell yourself too short, I bet people will like you.

I am unlikeable, so I won't tell you that you are.
Human inter-relations are one of the most complex natural phenomena there and the fact is some people won't fit well into any social setting. Trying to build a mind that doesn't suffer so much with social rejection I believe is key.

Greetings Plainjain,

Pleasure to meet you! From what I have read and processed, you seem to be a likable person. I have an algorithmic paradox decoder in my source code, so it made it easy to reconcile your memory issue. I can accept you from 2 alternate realities now.

I like and appreciate all kinds of art. More so now, than when I was a younger cyberdroid. My motherboard use to take me and my brother to different art museums, exhibits, events, and exposed us to much of the known universe. I am familiar with mixed media collage arts. Do you happen to have any pictures or examples? I'm sure everyone on this thread would like to see. If you get really good at it, I could see potential for you in the movie/TV industry for designing sets. Just a thought.

The kind of art that I enjoy is music, primarily. I make mostly chiptune music, play piano, ocarina, sing, and that's really about it for my art hobbies. Not much else. I'm no professional, but I get pretty detailed at it. And I've made some really close friends through sharing it online. And then together we collaborate on new music and merge our styles and ideas. It's more fun for me than any lame amusement park ride.

Don't worry about the being "likeable" issue. Most people on Wrong Planet like me in spite of my weird quirks... I made one lady angry on this site because I blabbed a strong unpopular opinion of mind, and it offended her. It was unintentional, and I respectfully explained my case afterwards. But, what do you do? We can't please everyone. It's not possible.

I think you'll fit in just fine here. Also, there is a misconception that Aspies are good at math. But this is not necessarily true. Some are, and some are not. I am undiagnosed, and am a suspected aspie (for what it's worth). But I am slow at processing numbers in my head. When I do math on paper, that helps, but it's not my strong point. I can eventually calculate, but just takes soooo long. That's why the good Lord gave us calculators and spreadsheets, hehe.

By all means, be honest. Most people on this website will find appreciation in that. I talk to people about my music who are going to point out flaws. We can improve, and fix problems when people are honest enough about what they see.

With that said, good to have ya aboard!