Hi there.
I'm Alena. I'm 24 and from England
I'm here because I'm not sure if I have Aspergers or not. Whether I do, or don't I'd appreciate some feedback about some behaviours I have had my whole life.
I showed the wikipedia article on Aspergers to my mother and friend. He said all geeks have autism a bit but that I was being a hypochondriac. My mother said something similar but agreed that I might have it "a bit" and my father slightly autistic but no need to think about it.. I let it slide, and dropped it but recently heard a radio 4 documentary that left me in tears.
I have had obsessions over time, a very geeky girl I've been very involved in my interests to the point of obsession and they tend to have a bit of an overlap.
they have involved Games, Astrology, Animating, Reading, Programming and a few TV shows
I enjoy programming. I get a kick out of applying logical puzzles especially working alongside graphics, breaking all the rules and then making all the essential things bit by bit. I taught myself and I always figured there were tons of people out there far better than I but now my ego is at peace... but people think I am depressed by the way I act and sound even though I have the life I've always wanted.
There are very few other women in my field, and the ones who have made a name for themselves tend to be very headstrong and self-confident, which is something I lack the majority of the time. I also wish I had the communication skills to inspire/mentor others.
I flinch when people touch me. I don't mind a light gentle touch, and hugs can be good but unexpected touching makes me jump a mile.
I am sensitive to sounds, especially my mother's voice(!) and mobile phone noise, also a lot of high-pitched or loud electrical noise. It sort of has the same fuzzly feeling in my head to when I yawn, anyone else get that? I don't like any talking when I'm concentrating, as a lot of people.
I rest and sleep in weird positions. I have recently developed more distinct anxiety behaviours. When I start it's like an addiction and I try to just stop myself. Most often in the evening.
I can be fairly incoherent, and tend to look away. Sometimes somebody will tell me something, I'll start answering before the meaning has kicked in and I'll go back on myself "I see what you mean, etc"... I repeat words a lot. I seem to have a liking for any repeating words "good-good, bye-bye, not-bad,not-bad" but repeat whole sentences like a practice launch.
Would be happy entirely alone days at a time, with only means to stay creative.
I don't, however, have problem with people interfering with my routine. I welcome change and seek adventure, although not all the time I see it as essential. I don't make ridged rules about things and I am a pretty flexible and laid-back/mellow in that way although more tense.
Looking forward to hearing from you interesting folk!