I'm not sure if I even belong here

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Hi all. As the title said, I'm really not sure if I belong here. In fact, I really don't even know if I have AS. Last night, in one of my standard "WHAA I'M SAD AND LONELY AND NO ONE LIKES ME" fazes (it was one of the bad nights) I made a post to SW on Reddit. Well, someone there had me take this AQ test, which I did not really knowing WTF I was doing or what it could mean until after I took it. As it turns out, I scored a 35 on that and saw the term AUTISM, kind of automatically said "this is BS" and ignored it for a bit. However, once I started looking into AS, I started seeing the most amazing thing. Every wikipedia article, and massive list of symptoms, every "hey, you idiot, go see a psychologist" type page described me. Well, the person who was talking to me about AS on Reddit pointed me here, and I started reading all of the forum posts from the people on this site and I realized "Holy s**t, these people are me!" Well of course, this kind of threw my entire life into perspective. I could tell automatically, from my early cognitive development and social retardation to my friendless, ridiculed high school experience, to my short lived time half succeeding half miserably failing in the navy, this just fits. Now, I'm obviously not diagnosed, and like I said I don't even know if I really have AS or anything like it or if I'm just a whiny misanthrope who doesn't like to be touched and doesn't know when to shut up and when it's ok to ramble on like a madman, but if nothing else at least it's good to see that I'm not alone in this sh***y horrible existence of alienation and disbelonging.

Anyway, sorry about the rant on crap you probably don't care about, hope I fit into your club here.

Thanks.

Welcome to WP!

Of course you belong here. Go look in your profile setting for diagnosis "Not sure if I have it or not."

Yes, I can see another of us stumbled out of the Mother Ship (like in Encounters of the Third Kind) and into WrongPlanet.net! Nothing like learning later in life (I only figured it out 3 years ago when I was 56!) Glad you are here!

You don't have to be 'diagnosed' to know yourself, you know.

Merle

If you have things in common with other people posting here, then you belong. Doesn't matter if you are diagnosed, NT or have Aspie traits--there's room here for everyone.

If you need a diagnosis, see a doctor.
If some comfort or understanding you're after, there aren't many better places than here, The Haven specifically.

Hi. I scored 38 on that test, as well as scoring within the ranges typical of AS/HFA on other tests. Be sure to take the Aspie-quiz also.

None of it means anything by itself, however--you are not a number, and a number is not you.

Welcome, regardless!

If you feel like you "fit in" here, you probably do.

Thanks for the link, CTbill. I got a 170 on it, so I'd guess that's again kind of indicative of AS/HFA.

Anyway, thanks all of you for the welcome.

Welcome greetings, fellow-traveler Homelesshobbits, to the WP neighborhood.

To WrongPlanet!! !