TKos wrote:
I'm pretty sure I have Asperger's. But I'd really like a second opinion, so this is why I think I have Asperger's:
I used to be very clumsy. One of my friends said I used to "stumble around," because I just couldn't seem to walk in a straight line. I'm still kind of clumsy, but not like I used to be. If I focus on doing something I'm usually much more coordinated, but without focus even now I still stumble a little when I walk.
I definitely can focus in too much one one narrow subject. Lately I've caught myself going off on rants about something no one else really cares about. I also noticed I've been doing it my whole life.
I have terrible social skills, too. They seem like they've gotten worse as I got older. In High School I was at least somewhat sociable even though I was still pretty reserved. I could at least talk to people I didn't know well in High School. Now I'm in college and I just can't bring myself to talk to anyone. I'm so terribly self-conscious I feel like I just can't. I feel like that's because I realized how stupid I've been acting in social situations my whole life, and because I'm so oblivious I feel like I'll make the same mistakes again.
Over the last year, half of the doctors I've seen think I'm depressed and the other half think I'm bipolar. I can be really irritable which is supposedly a form of mania, and I feel depressed a lot of times, but other than that I can't think of any symptoms I have that would be considered bipolar.
I think it's a lot more likely that I have Asperger's.
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hello there! i had similar symptoms at your age, and can tell you that there are traits you described above, that make me think of asperger's syndrome as well as dysthymia [they often go together in higher-functioning AS]. you owe it to yourself to see a professional about this- view it as a treat to yourself, to get therapy which can help you cope. it is tough to deal with it all alone.
btw, thank you for sharing.