Decepticon wrote:
...I was pulled by the desire to meet others like me. Yet I hate me.
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Now, I'm just the be-me Aspie who doesn't fit anywhere.
I refuse to become a fake human being. A parrot. "Shake hands with a firm grip, smile, make small meaningless talk..."
Maybe people in wheelchairs should learn to drag themselves up the stairs without a ramp. No, we give them support. Me, I got to change. I have to literally put on a mask everyday to just survive. I can't breath with that mask. I can't live like this anymore. I just can't.
Well, it's not a "proper" introduction. But it's probably the most honest I could be.
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Hi Decepticon,
Your introduction has parallels to how I feel - especially that first sentence. I do think WP is about the best place there is for advice and support. I don't find that WP people are are judgmental and your likely to get better insight about AS than you would from many doctors
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Clovis