Hi. I'm new. I'm twenty-two years old and live in New York. I only found out I had asperger's a year or so ago. I always felt I was different than other people but I didn't understand why. I was medicated for a long time and became a zombie, and it made me depressed even though I never really thought I was. I also gained weight which contributed to the depression from the medication and had movements from taking geodon to treat the social anxieties and depression. I went to a neurologist and was told I had early stage huntington's which sucked because I thought I only had ten years to live. But it turned out the movements were a side effect of the geodon and me trying to get off of it. Though, I might still have huntington's it usually doesn't develop until people are in their 40's. The test is really weird and if you have over a certain number you 100% have it, and if you're below a certain number you 100% don't have it, but if you're in between those two you may or may not have it.
But now that I'm 100% off the medication the movements are all gone. I just have difficulties with my family because my mom just died last Christmas from ovarian cancer and she was the only person who really understood me or cared about me. My dad never tried to get to understand me. I think he was upset because my mom gave me a lot of attention to me and he's very childish and selfish and demands a lot of attention himself. He's also pretty socially awkward so I'm wondering if he has some kind of autism too (I was adopted, by the way). So I plan on moving out and getting an apartment for myself soon. He also has a new girlfriend who he already plans on getting remarried too which upsets me a lot since he said so many nasty things about her before she died. He would scream at her about not being able to do things he asked her to do like going through the mail when she could barely even move. And he tricked me into getting her to go to a christmas party she didn't want to go to but made a deal with my dad that if he got me to go she would go too. When she wanted to stay home with me. I didn't know that at the time and I felt very betrayed when I learned that. Especially because that night she had to be rushed to the hospital from the party and died the next morning. Now he's been telling his new girlfriend he's "over my mother".
I'm blessed with a really big, crazy Irish family on my mom's side. So they're all relatively understanding.
Right now I've been obsessed with fitness, dieting and martial arts. People say I workout too much and look like I don't eat enough. But I actually eat a lot I just burn it off so fast.
01 Nov 2011, 3:32 pm
