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Hi everyone,

I've been floating around in the background a bit since I joined. I come here just about every day to read the posts. This is an exellent site. I've gained plenty of tips and I have laughed out loud lots of times.
The atmosphere is the most relaxing I have experienced in all my years of 'socializing'. I haven't posted many posts because it takes me aaaaages just to write a paragraph. I am also not trusting my communication at the moment do to a recent fall out with 'friends' without an understanding of why.

I hope this site never has to close. I'm not sure of everyones names who made this site, but WELL DONE!

I realized the other day that I introduced myself on someone elses topic, sorry about that, so I will do a proper one with an update here.

I'm 33. I like to do Digital Art using paintshop pro 8. I highly suspect I have HFA and am in the process of writing out a self referal to be submitted for diagnosis appointment.

WOOHOOO! Today I went for my Irlen's screening and I will have my glasses in 3 weeks. I am very, very exited about this! They are a dark aqua-blue. I love the colour!

I have a question too.
I very often find that I have all my muscle tensed up. Does anyone else do this?

Anyway, thanks everyone

ElfMan

Hi Elfman- glad to hear you're getting so much from the site

I often find that my muscles are all tensed up without me realising it. I get a lot of tension headaches that way. When I'm getting overloaded I find that my whole body tenses up and I often don't notice it straight away.

Thanks Mel

What I have got the most of from this site is the knowledge that my true core self is ok. When I found out what Aspergers is, I stopped feeling scared of myself. I've tended to view myself as a freak of nature up til now. Now I'm happy to have found a place where people don't ridicule each other for the things in the common world I have been mocked and laughed at and scolded for, and hugely mis understood.

It's given me courage to not care so much wether I'm doing things the right way or the wrong way. Now I know I do them MY way.

I allow myself to stim again now and I can't beleive the difference it makes. I never understood what my stims were, so I hated them, and in public I was always stiff and tense in an attempt not to stim. I would only ever stim when I was really frustrated about something and could not stop myself.
Now I allow myself any stim in private and certain stims in public. I have even learnt how to disguise a few.

I know there are mixed feelings about diagnose or not diagnose amoungst people. The reason I have decided to go for diagnosis is because finally at 33 I can admit I need help. I don't want help to stop my stims or cure my obsessions or to overcome my need for control. I would like help to have my eyes open without having sharp pangs shoot though my head and feeling like "I can't trust my own perception" as I used to say. So I'm getting Irlens glasses. This is the kind of help I'm talking about.
I haven't had paid work for the last 2 years. I have been doing volunteer work, but I want to earn an income. So I want help to get a job where I dont feel like an idiot because I cant explain why I stuff certain things up...alot. I had a job working for a friend who owned a car detailing business. She said I am an excellent detailer, but way too slow because everything had to be perfect. She said even when the cars were not too dirty and didn't need certain things done, I would still do them. She said that I could not skip a part of the process, even when it didnt need doing.
What I remember about that job is running around putting everything where it belongs and sorting everything out and telling the quality control guy to fix bits he had missed with his jobs. lol
Geez...I started raving on...what is this site doing to me?
yeah anyway, I may be dreaming but I want a job where my boss knows these quirks about me and likes them because he knows where they would be the most useful. I'm sure if I and my friend were aware at the time my jobs would have been based on what I did best. This friend I have known for nearly 20 years since year 8 in school.
Talking of her, she just got married in december and her husband (now) asked me to be his best man!! !! !! !! that photo of me that I used to have as avatar was of me getting ready.
I'll tell you teenagers out there that don't have many friends what this friend just told my daughter who is 14 and just started highschool. She said "Just think, you could be about to meet the person who is your best friend for life".
As far as friend go, friends go simple as that. But there is always someone who sticks closer than a brother. And through this one brilliant friend, I have 'contacts'.
Geez...I raved again...I'm gonna stop now

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ElfMan

Thankyou wrongplanet. I have been searching for an online place to meet other people with aspergers it had been suspected in 4th grade but formally diagnosed in 9th. I am now 18 anda senior in HS