I was diagnosed with something during my childhood. I can't remember when someone later disclosed to me what it was. But you don't get SSI or disability checks the year you turn 18 for nothing.
I wish I could be more descriptive but, there's enough that would fill a book.
The title speaks for itself.
I, don't like large groups of people, or crowd noise.
Eye contact is a hurdle.
Handshaking , people wanting to pat you on the back or head, getting kissed hugged tickled by parents and grandparents..
Felt like torture
Sensory related stuff that's waned or still there.
I can't stand walking in bare feet (except to shower/bathe)
Clothes feel funny
Food on my plate couldn't touch.
Having to have something to keep my hands busy
I don't like hats.
And countless others.
There's epilepsy. When I was about 4 years old I was deaf and mute which contributed to my still present stuttering. Used to have sort of lisp . I was treated for ADD/ADHD when I was a kid.Panic and aanxiety garbage. Labeled and unlabeled with depression. SSRIs seem to no effect.
I found school to be worthless. The "educated fool". Quit school during the 11th grade. I got a GED afterwards. I'm lousy with math and science. I can't really read tape measure/ruler. Could never figure out what one means by nine-sixteenths or five-eighths. Plus the amount of teasing and bullying I had to contend with. Mostly verbal, but remember a couple of incidents where it got physical.
I'm much more into fine arts than mechanical and technical things.
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24 Jun 2012, 7:09 am
