Hello!
I am new to WP (I found it in the past year while looking up Aspergers and women and finally decided to join). I was diagnosed with Aspergers last summer, about a month before my 25th birthday. I had never heard of it until a couple years prior and it took some time and work before I was finally able to find someone who was qualified to diagnose it in an adult. I was relieved when I received it--finally an explanation for the things I've always struggled with! More search for answers was in one sense done.
I am still struggling, however. Now I am overwhelmed with trying to learn more about Apsergers and trying to understand myself. I am finding it difficult to tell what is Aspergers and what is just fault/choice on my part. One of the questions that has plagued me for much of my life is "am I lazy?". I don't know about anyone else, but when I try to do a task that I really do not like or want to do (such as homework or cleaning my room), I feel like an impenetrable wall is thrown up in my brain and I just cannot break through and concentrate on the task to save my soul.
I currently do not have any friends and have not had any since I graduated from high school (in large part do to my 4 year relationship with a mentally/emotionally abusive with my ex fiance that started that summer). I feel incredibly Isolated and lonely. I've been moving a lot in recent years (and my family moved several times growing up), and my parents are divorced. I am currently living with my father (who obviously has Aspergers himself given his complete cluelessness about certain things, such as my Aspergers) and my mother, who is now physically disabled, is living with her sister. Her husband is in the military and so they move every two to three years. I don't get a lot of support from my dad and my support tree (my mother and aunt) are way over in Hawaii. I have never met anyone else with AS (at least not knowingly), and continue to struggled to find support groups and the like for adults like myself. I get so frustrated that everything is either for children with AS or for parents of children/adults with AS.
Anyway, sorry to ramble and rant. I've been feeling overwhelmed by everything and I am tired of feeling alone and isolated. I tend to be more of a lurker, but I wanted to reach out to my fellow Aspies. I hope that I can get to know all of you--and myself--better!
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Spread My Wings . . .
15 Apr 2013, 1:43 pm
