First a commentary from Ghosthunter:
Last night I was suppose to find out if
my roommate and I finally sold our
first computer. We did, I found out.
It was a Macintosh 1400c/166/2g/F.Drive/
33mhz bus Powerbook that sold for $200.
It is a representation that not all I do
fails, or succeeds. It was a business
excersice to allow his & my knowledge
to have some physical world value.
I should be happy, but this is not why
I am unhappy.
End of Ghosthunters statement.
1)...The Questions?
"Have you ever overexstended your coping skills?"
2)...Comments by Ghosthunter
Overextension and it's heavy price wrote:
I, as I got older have a good resilency to coping
skills and this is due to being through most ropes
that you folks will have experienced to one degree
or another.
I have always sought to look forward and help
others and myself through learning how helping
them can help me in return(new skills found).
I tend to hold off when I reach a certain point
so I retain my true essence and not reveal the
blubbering idiot that others use to look at me as,
though that vulnerability will sometimes reveal
itself. It has been a rare occurence in the last
5 years to have hyperventilation unless I really
need to push beyond these bounderies, and my
helpful self cannot give freely because this
emotion has been spent and all that is left is
the vulnerable self.
I should be happy that I sold a computer by being
this helpful soul, and seeing validation for my
efforts(a rare occurence also). I show up at
shipping day and all goes well.
6:45am, I Z-Tag, start store setup
7:30am, I start the shipment
8:35am, I finish shipment inventory
9:00am, I finish the dishes
No incident, and all is well!
10:00am, We have a new client to deliver
to and the bosses wife say's she wants to
give more delivery hours. I am getting
slightly stressed, and that is why I clocked
at 10:00am.
Hmmm? Not sure so far!! !!
11:00am, the soup spills, I get clumsbier,
customers are lining up, I want them to
go away, delivery is due at 11:30am,
and I will lose hours dearly to a not-so-
sympathetic bosses wife if this delivery
doesn't go with no mistakes. As a matter
of fact she spent 1.5 hours with me going
over it knowing I am autistic, and we set
it up so it should go smoothly yesterday
at 4:45pm-6:30pm.
Hmmm? Go away customers, I start
panicking since their is a greater price
for screwing up this delivery than your
stupid sandwich order and the fact we
can't break your $100 Travellers check.
My co-worker(a female) knows I am autistic
and is looking at me as I hyperventilate
in as much of a discrete fashion as possible
in the line of customers since you are
only temporary(the customers at that
moment) an the price of failure requires
me to push this giving boundry. And she tells
me to calm down.
11:30am, We arrive to the site and leave
by 11:50am. I go to the other store and
thank the stars that all went as well as
possible, though I am exhuasting my
usually reliable coping skills.
12:50pm, The bosses wife lets me just wave
the sign around and I have some venting
time(NOT SCARRY LOOK TIME) and further
exhaust my coping skills reserve pool.
1:30 pm, I arrive at the main store and
pickup my regular clothing with no coping
skill,(It feels like bleeding everywhere) and
hope the world leaves me alone.
She(the supervisor "I DON'T LIKE" asks can I
cover for a hour) and I freeze, and all I can do
is give this scarry stare, and she say's "you look
like you don't hear me". Then the acting manager
asks, and I mutter, No!, and that is a first, I have
no coping skills and leave me alone I am thinking
to myself.
2:00pm, I arrive at the hostel and the badgery
owner is yelling at his other favorite chew toy
and I thank the stars he didn't see me a chew bait.
I had no coping skills. I skulk out of there like
a abused child and write this.
2:15pm, I read a tidbit of a 34year old and getting
diagnosed and I have nothing to say, instead bleed
all over his statements meaning and appologize to
you folks and contemplate how to write(not BLEED)
this.
If some of you don't get it, I can understand. If some
of you don't mind being BLED over, that's cool also.
Unhappily,
Ghosthunter
3)....The Question Repeated...!
"Have you ever overexstended your coping skills?"
Last edited by Ghosthunter on 28 Apr 2005, 6:11 pm, edited 1 time in total.
28 Apr 2005, 5:45 pm
