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I and my wife agreed. When worlds collide it should be important that we document it as such yes?

Anyhow it seems that I have posted twice on this forum and have not somehow managed to get my mind to link up with anyone else's mind which is idk I mean kind of the point for me. Constructive conversation at a mutual station?

First I asked for advice on a fairly important matter to me and I have since been admonished for asking the possible worst people on the planet for relationship-social/mental health advice. I am still not sure I agree with this sentiment, as I am currently predisposed to the assessment that autistic individuals have a higher innate affinity with an ethical right. Probably rubbish or wishful thinking but nevertheless I have seen enough evidence as such, and well I really do not care to try to explain this any further.

Second I whimsically wrote what is probably seen as rubbish to anyone excepting myself and threw it in the writing section because I really wasn't sure where else to put it. I did sort of express that it was not proper expression but nonetheless did at some level expect some reciprocation from a people I am told are like minded to myself. (I admit I am still not 100% convinced of this.)

After a lengthy discussion ending in an exhausted, (but smiling,) wife I have come upon what for my brain at least is an epiphany. I have one mode of expression outside endless audible rants which I place value upon, otherwise known as writing.

I was introduced to writing as an art form at around age ten through two highly intelligent friends who were perfectly functional stereotypical nerds with what I now realize was probably (for them at least,) a fairly healthy male obsession with control factors. (Physics, Star Trek, Writing, Anime, MAGIC, etc.) These traits would later drive these individuals to extreme levels of success. I grabbed onto this art as I stylized it as a means of communicating my own wishes for the factors of control, such as Final Fantasy 3, tabletop RPG's (to which I stubbornly refused to deviate from the expected and to my mind easily grasped intended outcomes of the dungeon master who I reflectively cannot help but recognize the inflated value of the gentleman's arrogance regarding his capacities for forethought.)

^ Last sentence really expresses well exactly where I am at now. The consensus I have reached with my wife is as such. I suck at communicating. As a compensation I have always found writing to be intoxicating because I imagined that I was creating great leaps of effective communication. I got 100% on every college paper without the rough drafts and minimal editing. (I cannot easily make a mistake without knowing it since I am fairly brutally honest with myself about what I do and do not know for certain, making proof-reading an exceptionally effective procedure/exercise for my brain, despite my apparent lack of innate writing skill. )

In other words.
I am skipping massive chasms of exposition in the interest of advancing my intended message in what I perceive as an elegant manner. I perceive subtlety as elegance. "We" also believe this is in part a compensation for the frustrations I face in conveying meaning across the canyon that is interpersonal communication. I'm not sure if those are the right words. Especially with interpersonal.

Last it has also been broached that I may be saying too much. (My wife again.) And with that in mind I will make my absolute best attempt to expedite this process into this much smaller sub section of descriptive "Hello"s.

Hi. I love people. I hate how they act toward, (because I am unsure how to spell treat,) each other. I am almost 100% inherently good minded and I balk at most things perceived as wrong or sinful etc. Unless I am running on autopilot at which times sometimes I am capable of accidently wronging people at which point I get to feel really really really un-special for a really really really long time after-words. (Deleting large cache of text now)

Moving on, I believe that most world leaders are victims of their own self perceived idealism. Meaning, even the worst of people likes to think of themselves as good. What this means is that I am forced to question a persons judgement when they look me in the face and explain to me that a man is capable of attaining the highest office known to mankind and turning around and doing nothing whatsoever outside feeding his bank account with his time for 8 years. (In reference to my countries leaders.) I am forced to believe that at least on some level that individual must at least assess the possibility that he, (or increasingly she,) act upon patriotic nuances within his nature. (Apparently I cannot spell judgement either.)

My wife calls this naïve. Which brings me to the real crux of my inability to frame a sort of reference for common factors of communication. I don't know who to talk to that produces the desired effects because I apparently am living in some form of disassociated reality. But I do want to talk to somebody. I am just not sure f I am conveying who I am properly or if I am conveying something of a creepy person or if I am simply not even conveying that I actualy intend for or would appreciate reciprocal conversation.

It is 12am + here. I lost my wife at 6 hours into a conversation about life and etc. Somehow some where I guess I was supposed to grow out of this curiosity or naïve need for revelations or what ever fuels this. I watched my peers "grow up" and I desired to accomplish the apparent epiphanies accompanied but was somehow incapable of grasping the concepts involved in putting the matter, (or the social/economic entity,) before the mind. My daughter is 4 now and I can almost swear she has already transgressed this anomaly of sociology. This simple fact really puts certain things into perspective for me, I guess.

Anyways, Hi.

Hey seeslivepeople welcome.

Hi, I read in your profile that you like music a lot.
I live in "the" (lol) USA, however some of my favorite types of music are not native to my homeland.

I very much enjoy listening to the Orthodox Celts. Although I confess nearly wholesale ignorance of the political issues addressed therein. The words are not really where my appreciation arises in most music. In relation I am also a really big fan of the song Zombie, (Cranberries,) for probably more universally obvious reasons.

I love vocally absolute emotionally driven music. IDRC what they are saying. The focal emotion makes my head clearer where it is normally more chaotic/frantic. Substitution versus absolution?

Big fan of acoustic or folk type music. I would have been very happy if history had never left the realm of audible lore. I enjoy listening to voices when they are isolated. Jewel +1

Interestingly, (to me at least,) I ran away from home as a young man and was effectively rescued from my ignorance by the dean of Interlochen school of arts, and the owner of a nearby coffee shop. The coffee shop owner actually found me but the dean changed my attitude that day. I was in Traverse City down on Front Street where I fell asleep on a bench and essentially lost the heat to operate at as it was rather cold.

Anyway I wrote the guy a short story, (2 pages of which I was very impressed with the elegance to which I described the ambient setting at what I knew was too young an age for the language I used,) sitting in the coffee shop nearby half an hour later and was rewarded with a short narrative on how Jewel, (Jewel the American folk singer,) had failed piano classes, (at his decision,) due to her innately low level of "talent" in the exercise. He seemed like a nice fellow. I did feel really bad for him to have made such a terrible mistake but he was very adamant about it being the correct choice. Jewel is a marvelous singer in that she has succeeded where many others failed. In capturing the most basic of premises of singing which extends back to the oldest ages of history. But apparently she is a terrible pianist.

Anyhow as a music lover I thought you might appreciate this story.

I am resisting googling whether or not to capitalize the word Dean. These sorts of rules are very difficult for me to remember in specific instances no matter how many times I relearn them. That advanced language I talked about earlier has not advanced much since then for whatever reason.

I, (with clear intention,) confess that communication for me at least would be easier if people let on more easily whether or not errors in grammar were an aggravation as such. I could then stop correcting myself for fear of somehow not living up to my end of the communication bargain?

Is it very odd that I answered a simple response with an intricate one? This has occurred to me now.

Music is very important to me though. It is nice that you isolated it. It is probably more important to some of us than we realize.

Yes, that was quite the read for my simple message. That's alright lol.

I love Jewel and the Cranberries. Folk and acoustic music is great. I've been told I have a very eclectic taste in music.

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