Are there really other people like me?

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I've never been officially diagnosed with autism or AS, although I had a psychiatrist who said it was very likely.
So I don't know if I truly belong here. I would not want to intrude. However, I've "lurked" on the site for a long time, and those on the spectrum seem to be the only people I come close to understanding.

I've come here at 1:30 AM not only because I cannot sleep, but because I think it's time I finally registered as a member. I've had enough of watching and would like to actively participate. I suppose I'm obligated to state a bit about myself:
I was born in 1985, I struggled through school until I dropped out to get a job. I never had any real friends during that time, and never connected to anyone. I always stayed away from other people because I didn't understand them. By the time I got to High School, I was known as "that crazy boy" and I somehow got enough of a reputation to have a lot of people genuinely afraid of me. I suppose a normal male would have taken advantage of this to try and increase his "social status," but I am hardly a normal male and such things have never had any meaning to me.
I tried working, but found it meaningless. I was a bit glad when I was finally laid off in 2009 or 2010, I can't remember exactly.
Since then, I've slowly but surely began to rot away from boredom. I would like to meet interesting people and do interesting things, but my definition of interesting differs from that of normal people. So, I sit around watching Star Trek and playing Super Mario World for the ten-billionth time.

I don't know how much longer I have in this world, and I'm liable to leave here as quickly as I came. I hope I enjoy it while I'm here though, and maybe I can even help someone.

There is no need to reply to this post. After less than an hour, I've decided this site is not for me.