I’m not exactly a new member, but last time I introduced myself I wasn’t as self aware. I lied to myself, and so lied to other people. Truth is my life wasn’t as happy as I showed it. I introduced a different person back then. So I’d like to introduce the real me now.
Several months ago I was diagnosed with Asperger’s, and at the same time PTSD. The second part is a long story. Childhood trauma. I’m not up to talk about it now, but let’s just say it was . . . very very very bad. When I was 11, I wanted to die and I spent most of my life not knowing why.
I guess I survived this long because I was curious. I had most of the symptoms of being an aspie except narrow interests. I’ve read books from literally single part of the library, every fiction and non fiction unimaginable. I do tend to attach myself to specific interests though even after I enjoy novel periods — I’ve had meltdowns without these downtimes though.
I don’t think I progressed so fast as much as these last 12 months. I still cry nearly everyday though, but I spend a good portion of the day calm and happy. More truting and open to people from better social skills and emotional healing. It’s tiring to live a life like mine, but I guess I’ll be okay. I’m 17 now.
Life can be terrible, and it still is. Sure is interesting to learn about though.
So nice to meet you. It’s a pleasure.
14 Apr 2018, 7:33 am
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