21 Feb 2010, 11:14 pm
Not sure if this goes here but I'm just posting here b/c its about a problem w/ a friend at college:
I'll try to keep it short but I've got this friend who in general is a total jerk & he keeps saying stuff that's really pissing me off:
He keeps making comments about my "no touching policy" I have to have w/ everyone pretty much: I have panic attacks & stuff. He's convinced I'm not "working hard enough to control my symptoms" and that I should be more open to casual physical contact ("It'll take a long time, but if you work at it, you'll get used to it. It's all in your head") 
! (I've been trying to deal with this my entire life but the prob is the symptom range is too wide):
If I experience a certain sensation (ex. a playful poke in the ribs, hug, should tap, etc. I can have anything from non-reaction to stiffness/pull away-panic attack or lose sensation in a limb (I lost the sensation in my right arm shoulder blade-finger tips in HS from someone touching my shoulder...)
I can't really see away around this & can't figure out how I could risk not warning my friends about my sensory issues b/c I really freaked out friends & classmates in HS... would like to avoid scaring everyone s**tless again. 
p.s. On the other hand I crave deep pressure (other sensory stuff), so I know its a sensory problem & not a figment of my imagination. I've also got another friend whose an aspie & she has none of my sensory crap... jealous. 
I need to figure out how to deal w/ this stuff b/c I'll be dealing w/ it as long as I live. * heavy sigh
