I'm skipping college

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I'm skipping college because I just cannot do it any more, mainly because of the social side and the many hours of break time almost equal to the amount of lesson time itself. The main course itself is not worth doing because of these reasons. Yes I have been defeated, but I've been defeated by my limitations many, many times before and there simply is no way around them. Face your fears? That's bullcrap to me, it only makes them worse and I never, ever learn from them

I'm in college now, in my third attempt, after doing basically what you just described for the first two years, not going because I just couldn't take it, and eventually just dropping out. This time though I'm still going and it's nine weeks in, and it's been hard, especially the first few weeks, but it's getting much better. I'm relaxing, settling in, not focusing on socializing at all and just using all my free time in the library either working or on the computers. By not thinking all the time about being social it's making me generally more relaxed so that I am more able to talk and be myself around people when I need to be. I'm actually (so far) managing to keep up with the work and not feeling too overwhelmed. I have a sort of determination now, because I really want to finish this course so I can go to Uni, and I know even if it sucks it's only for two years, and time goes faster than you think.
I had absolutely no hope before I started this year, after my previous failed attempts and basically my whole life of being disappointed like that, but in a way that was good because it's like I have nothing left to lose.
Does your college know about you having AS? I'm lucky to have good tutors who know about me and stuff and they are supportive without being interfering/patronizing, which helps a lot. I guess if you can then try and stick it out, things might get better in time.

I usually ignore college socialization, though it does sometimes find me. I suppose its good to go to gatherings of NTs occasionally; with so many of them around, its good to know something about them.

I find living off-campus helps a lot with avoiding general student-caused annoyance, and the housing can be had for less.

I'm doing college and I'm doing so well. There's a lot more work than GCSE, sure, but I'm still doing alright in my subjects.

As for socialising, I isolate myself the same way I did in previous years. I do sometimes get people talking to me, but when they do they're actually mostly nice.