Anticipatory Anxiety about Class

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I have class tonight and I'm having a lot of anxiety over it. Enough anxiety to the point that I'd rather not go. There's nothing to be afraid of though. The class is a lecture format so you just sit and listen. The material isn't particularly hard and the professor is a nice guy. My classmates aren't mean or intimidating. And yet I'm afraid to go. So afraid in fact that class is becoming aversive. Even the promise of a Dr. Pepper (which I only get on day I go to class) isn't enough to motivate me.

Does anyone else ever feel this way? I do my best to go to class every week but this anxiety is getting out of control. I even took my klonopin and I don't feel any better. I wonder what's going on in my brain.

I felt that way when I was 15 and that pretty much ruined any chance I had of having a good career. I failed everything. By the time I was 16 I'd gotten over it but by that time I'd already decided not to try due to the events of the previous year so even though I past it was all just random courses and then same thing when I was 17. I did nothing for about four years and then ended up in an easy yet humiliating job. Now I really want to live my life again but I don't currently have access to a time machine.

I have anxiety about the class I'm in now. I don't ever have to talk to anyone, though I'm becoming much more comfortable with my classmates which helps. But all we do is silent work on our own on a computer. Perhaps I'm so uncomfortable because it's hard for me to stay in one place and focus on the tasks, especially when everyone else seems to have no problem with it. In class I can't sit still, I pick at my fingers, play with my hair, research things unrelated to the work we are doing, and my knees get sore for some reason. Anyways, I take a lot of walks to refresh myself, but this is definitely easy for me due to the lack of supervision in my class most of the time. I'm very lucky in that way. I hope you can find something to help you with your anxiety.