I don't want to go back!

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Today, my boss threw me under the bus and I don't want to go back tomorrow.

I work in real estate for an agent who is part of a large company. He has his own private office and I have to work in the cubicles in the main room. I sit next to two girls who work for a team. I hear everything they say. Not that I try to. They're just right there. Believe me, half of it I don't want to hear and most of it is so catty I don't want them to even notice me for fear of returning to high school, if you know what I mean. When I can, I got into his office to make calls, because their criticalness of other people makes me fear working next to them. Reputation matters so much in real estate.

This team shares a client with us. Well, not share really. They do some of his listings. My boss does some of them. Well, they have been having issues with this client. He's not happy with them. I overheard one of the girls whispering about the guy possibly taking his two listings he has with them to another agent and she said my boss's name as that agent. She was whispering, but, Hello!, I could still hear. I wanted my boss to be aware that something might be happening so he wouldn't be caught by surprise later on. I'm supposed to have his back. He does well, I do well, right? I told my boss about it in an e-mail, which is how I usually communicate with him. Well, he comes out and says "*My Name* thinks that you may think *Client Name* is bringing his listings to me. But why would I want his listings when I sent them to you?..." So embarrassing! First question that must have come to their mind - Why would she say that? Because I overheard them! Talk about total breach of trust! And of course they're going to deny it! Now the girls are going to think all I do is sit there and spy on them. He didn't have to say anything, because the client could have just been threatening them into representing him the way he wanted.

I was so fraught with panic and discouragement that I went in his office and cried. He wasn't there. Right after he said all that, he left to show a house. I sent him an e-mail and told him in a nice way that you don't do that to someone with Asperger's. We have enough social anxiety issues.

I don't want to go back tomorrow. I don't want to work there. I don't want to have to deal with those girls. I don't want to deal with the snootiness and fakeness that are Realtors. I don't want to deal with all the things like answering phones, meeting clients, acting formal, long hours, etc. that are so hard to deal with because of my Asperger's. I don't dress right. I couldn't even afford to dress right if I could. It's not me. It never has been.

But I need money.

I just need someone to talk to. No one in my life understands what it's like to have this social anxiety.

Your boss threw you under a bus?!

It's a figure of speech. It means he betrayed her. Meggo, he should have known better or else he did it on purpose. I can understand why you wouldn't be happy at your job. It sounds like a viper's nest. Have you ever thought about doing something like title searches?

I've definitely thought about doing other things. I fell into real estate and since then haven't been able to get a job anywhere, but in real estate.

If it were me, I would feel awfully awkward about returning to that job after that happened. I think your boss is an idiot. Why on earth would he handle things the way he did? You weren't trying to create drama, you were showing that you were looking out for him. What a jerk!

Your boss did not handle the situation well. However maybe it will teach those ladies to stop gossiping.

You didn't do anything wrong. If it was "classified" information they shouldn't have been talking about it where others could hear, so don't feel like you did anything wrong.

Thank you everyone for replying. I'm at work right now. No one is here. The anxiety is starting to kick in. I'm going to think a lot and look at other jobs over the weekend, but I need a certain amount per week and I don't want to transfer to another job that isn't any better on me. It will be difficult in this economy.

Years ago at a job they tried to "freeze me out". I didn't know what was going on, only that management was very rude to me. It was only that a coworker I was friends with clued me in. I did my job well, I just didn't fit in. Fitting in meant catty gossip and backstabbing. Keep searching and even if you have to take a pay cut I think it's worth it. Your happiness is priceless.

He apologized this morning. He gave no explanation, so I don't know if he did do it on purpose to prove a point or if he was just being a complete a**. I don't think he's trying to get rid of me. I'm his only employee and he's preparing me for future projects. I just don't get why he would do something like that when I have helped him boost his business. I've even explained my Asperger's to him, but he doesn't understand it enough to say, "Wait a minute. Maybe I should speak to her about this." I don't get it. All I know is that things are majorly awkward here today and I'm trying to get my work done so I can just leave.

Come to think of it, maybe he did this in a moment of ego tripping. Maybe he didn't even think it through. Nevertheless, it was a bad move.

No, he didn't think it through. But, sadly, talking to those girls didn't make him look as-bad-as it did me. He came off as the honest "company team player". He asked me to go out to lunch with him and his family, which he never does. So, maybe he feels bad about it. But the bad feelings aren't as much between the two of us as it is between me and the girls beside me. I declined. I just don't feel comfortable with it right now.