I went to work Thursday. I had diarrhea since 4am that morning, it didn't register in my brain that my normal medications were just ending up in the toilet. This manifested as every sound at work hurting my ears and swimming vertigo with nausea. Even voices, I lost it and told a particularly loud (braying jack ***) coworker to shut the **** up. After he ignored my plea to please not talk to me because I am sick. It ended with a screaming match. I am left work and have been calling in. I just got a message from my manager to call the owners. I am in unexplainable horror at the thought. The idea of returning to that he'll hole of sensory overload puts me into instant anxiety ridden paralysis. I can't call or think about going there, without adrenalated terror. Pretty sure I just lost job # 41. The thought of looking for job #42 is sickening. It will just end up like all the others. My next brain doctor visit is in 3 weeks. I don't have SSI, I used all my cash aid, and I have 4 kids to provide for. I am losing my s**t due to workplace meltdowns. Anyone else having this happen to them?
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