Had a really bad night

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I was scheduled to work from 5-10 tonight in the kitchen at Casey's. About 30 minutes in, a worker became annoyed at me because I hadn't put the reciepts in the pizza box after I boxed the pizzas. Now, this is not the first time I wasn't doing things the right way. It's happened 3 other times since I started there just 1 month ago, btw. When this happens, I go to the break room and cry because I feel like a complete failure a that moment. I guess this is why people with aspergers have trouble holding down a job.

When it happened tonight, I have built such an intolerance for things like that I had told her to "shut up", before I stormed off.

After about 10 minutes of sitting in the break room, someone had come to check in on me, but made me feel even worse when she said "you can't say shut up to a co worker". It was because of that that I eventually felt that I could not continue on with my shift, so I left.

I then went across the street because I didn't feel like driving home at that point. It didn't help that when I called my dad, he told me that saying that is a fireable offense, among other things to make me feel bad about myself for what had happened.

Btw, I said "shut up" relatively quietly. Not like I said it in a yelling/screaming tone. Yet here are people talking as I did yell/scream.

I am still depressed and shaken up about this. I want to be like everyone else, but the sad reality is that I have aspergers. I feel uneasy about my job security and assuming they're not even considering firing me at this point, idk about my ability to get better.

I feel pathetic.

You had no right to be rude to a woman who was asking you to do your job properly. As for crying at work, I know many NTs who report doing this frequently.

Either way, I wouldn't be so hard on yourself; you have a job and a car (along with a license) at age eighteen, and so you're already well ahead of, I'd dare say, most people here when they were that age. I have none of those things and I'm twenty-two.

Don't give up on yourself.

My suggestion is a face to face apology to the woman who came to check on you-- without attaching any excuses-- as well as to your boss if you are not fired.

Getting and keeping work is work.

Crying at work-- I have done loads of that when I was younger. I used to retreat to the bathroom and then wash my face with soap when done. Lots of women cry at work when they are angry and feel unable to make things better. I was one of them. That sort of thing stops as we get older.

I did tend to hide my tears as much as possible. This was not always possible.

I was not a failure. A bit oversensitive, overwhelmed, tired but not a failure. I did used to feel like one.

I also would tell myself stuff like, "I will never get another job" and "Things will always be like this for me."

Today I work in a great place. I have a supportive boss. Anyone can get accommodations there for the asking. And we don't even have to give a medical reason or any reason.

One mistake is one mistake. Be good to you.

Plenty of people are indifferent or hate us. We do not have to hate ourselves.