I'm stunned that I got a callback to test for this job, given that I didn't actually fill out the additional application form they previously emailed me about. Apparently just my little one-page resume was enough for them! It's a demanding admin support job -- demanding for me because a/ I'm not actually trained in this field, just have some related experience, b/ I am used to working from home and not having to deal with people all day, and c/ I'm an aspie fercrissakes. So, I may go take the test next week and fail because I don't have the requisite knowledge, or I may fail then or later because I am not a people person.
But you know, it's in a government department that isn't all soft and touchyfeely. I may get by being professional. I just hope I don't have to completely shut down emotionally like I used to have to when I was teaching. That was 10 years ago and my emotional skills have developed, although I am all too cognizant of my own shortcomings that my failures make frequently evident.
So, if I fail, I will no longer view it as my defect. Yes, I am a reject as a human being because the normies have indeed rejected me. However, as this is in a legal administrative area, I do have some organizational skills that may be adequate to make this work for me. I will have to use all the interpersonal savvy I can muster. Picture a little kid trying to lift the heavy hilted sword of a medieval knight. Hopefully I don't cut off anyone's fingers or my own nose.
I'll be studying up this week on the info and skills listed in the job description.
I want the goverment job's pay, benefits and security so I can get a good mortgage for a modest house to live in.
03 Mar 2009, 6:41 pm
