elephantgirl wrote:
yes, meditation is really really helpful when you get the hang of it. As a beginner, you might find workshops especially helpful. If the zen center is too far for you, have you looked up other options, like Shambala and Kadampa and more casual new agey ones? I probably tried about five teachers before I hit on one workshop that made absolute sense to me. That was just a temporary class, so now I'm checking out these temples near my house...
From my own experience, I feel that having guidance with my practice helps get me out of my own obsessions and presuppositions. Although books can be great, working with a teacher will help you bring your practice a step further and bring a lot more fullness into your practice.
You don't have to go every day or even every week for it to be helpful. If the zen center is so far away, you could consider going just occasionally on the dharma talk days for inspiration. I have a pretty turbulent home life, but after I went to the center the other day, I really have a different perspective on things. Maybe something about my energy or attitude has shifted because this week has had less conflict than usual, and I feel less in the old rut. But more importantly, I feel really content and inspired and humbled.
For those who do not have direct access to a Zen master, like you, they have created this site to help you
http://www.zenforuminternational.org/viewforum.php?f=32
go to the ASK A TEACHER section
Be well.