My life is affected by the horrible British politics. I'm not clever enough to go to college and study hard and end up in a really good career and a well-paid job just so I can move on. In Britain from about 2010 onwards, we've now got to be mega stinking rich if we want to move on (drive, move out of parent's house, have children, live). The only way to get out of it if we ain’t rich is to die. So, according to the f***ing shitface government, every British man, woman and child has to:
-not get ill (because they're cutting the NHS services)
-not get old (because they're cutting the carehomes and other help)
-not be unconfident, thick and poor (because all the government is caring for is the rich people and the forriegn people).
I'm sorry if that sounded a bit over the mark, but I have no hope at all, all because if this f**k-face Aspergers what I NEVER ASKED FOR! I will get ill because this AS is causing me major anxieties of everything. I will get old, well everybody will, it's inevitable, (but the government doesn't think that). And I'm not forriegn nor am I rich, nor am I clever or confident, so you know where I'll end up? I'll be living with my parents my whole life, and when they pass on I'll be thrown out.....onto the streets.
Actually - because of this nasty AS, I am stressing my mum out with my uncontrollable meltdowns and the anger I have inside me, and she is heading for a nervous breakdown. I am a big mistake to her, and if I wasn't afraid of death, I'll kill myself right now to make everyone happy, and also to get out of this horrible state this country is in. And don't say ''other countries are worse'' because they are not. There may not be disease here, but it is just as bad. Greed. Credit crunch. Job cuts. Homeless. Great Britain has gone to pot. I need help with my AS, and I ring the doctors once a week to get referred to counselling, and I'm still not getting nowhere fast. My nan has Alzheimer's, and none of the social services are doing anything. She has carers but they don't do much for her, and it's all just falling on the family to look after her. We tried getting her into a carehome, but the social services still don't want to help, and we want her to be well cared for in them. Not left to rot. If we lived in any other European country we would have got all the help we needed. I daren’t have kids because they’ll be born Autistic or some other s**t like that, and that’s very cruel to have kids at the risk of them being born as depressed as me. So when I grow old and get ill, there’ll be no-one to look after me, so I’ll be left to rot. All my older relatives would be passed on by then, and my cousins are all confident NTs and so will be out my life married with NT children.
If I never had AS, there MIGHT have been more chance of me having a social life and forgetting the state this country is in. I might have been able to just get a job without panicking and worrying. I would have been able to drive without having to take all these extra tests what people with disabilities have to take.
I hate every single thing about AS, and unless you're a confident Aspie, who has Aspie-intelligence, you'll do fine. But, although I'm Aspie, I don't have Aspie-intelligence (which is high IQ), and I'm not into libraries, books and studying. And - worst of all, I have 0 confidence, and there's nothing I can do to get help because I've tried and tried, and I'm getting nowhere fast, all because this country is overpopulated with too many foreigners, and there just isn’t enough help for everybody.
And don’t take this personally – I’m talking mostly about the Eastern Europeans.
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