K_Kelly wrote:
Even though I'm raised Christian, I'm finding it hard to not hate God and I'm losing my faith in the God. It will take a novel to write so much about how I feel about the universe today, but the gist of it is that I think my personal life and everybody else's is unfair. Yet, when we go to Heaven, these don't really matter anymore. Why would God create the Earth and dispose of it anyway? I feel so sad and terrible.
Am I the only Christian or only person on the planet who has these beliefs?
I would say "God works in mysterious ways," but I'm not a particularly religious person, and if there is a God, I don't think it's a matter of being mysterious. The fact of the matter is, whether there is a god or not, we are no less finite in our ability to comprehend the universe as a cat, or a dog, or a mouse, or an ant. Each is limited in what it can perceive and understand, and can only make sense of a very small fraction of the universe as a result of that. The human brain is impressive, but also limited all the same.
My cat had cancer on the back of his head. He was completely unaware that he had this cancer, or that it could kill him. He felt just fine. He has no idea why he was put in a box and taken to the vet, handled by scary strangers, and put in a cage in a room with other distressed animals, and poked with needles. He has no idea why he woke up with a throbbing wound on the back of his head, and had his head stuck in a plastic cone for weeks. From his perspective, this horrible experience just happened to him for no reason. He had no idea that he was ill, and the things that horrible things that happened to him were to save his life.
If there is a god, why should we expect our experiences to be any different, and similar things to not happen to us?