zee wrote:
Yes, if I wasn't afraid I'd have killed myself ages ago. It's my biggest fear, I don't see how you others can shrug it off.
I'm not really afraid of dying but I don't really shrug it off either. I'll guarantee it doesn't have anything to do with courage. It’s just not something I think about often or worry over. I'm deftly afraid of plenty of other things.
I'm much more afraid of people that I love dying than I am of my own death. I can't completely explain the reasons why. It might be because I'm just selfish. I know that if I die I won't have to mourn anything because I won't exist, yet if a family member dies I will have to live with an irreversible loss.
Ironically it’s this realization that has prevented me from killing myself. I knew that taking my life would cause irreversible pain to other people. I can’t purposely kill myself even if life doesn’t always seem worth living. Only intolerable pain could convince me to take my own life despite this.