new year 2015- what's so blinkin' HAPPY about it?
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I almost completely escaped emotions as a result of a pain disorder and around 19 total disorders as shut-in behind a computer with the screen lights turned all the way down, for over 5 years in a white T-shirt and underwear, like that guy making meth in that TV show Breaking BAD, and it would have been much more fun if I could have used my eyes and ears to watch it, but nah pain too severe to look at colors or listen to sounds.
Words of text is all I was, and empty ones without any emotions to speak of at all.
All I can say is be careful what one wishes for when one wishes to escape ego and emotions as they are vital parts of a healthy human being as science shows in tasks as simple as choosing what color sock to wear.
Truly I did not realize the importance of emotions or ego until I lost it, with no physical ability to get it back.
And what I found is this. Even with being able to still lift 480 LBS with my legs through the whole ordeal with dark sunglasses and ear-plugs in, I felt weaker in spirit than my 94 year-old Aunt, and she had more power to speak than I did.
I also recognized clearly that my cat in my cat's still obvious ability to connect to my wife in oxytocin way was more human than I was, horrifyingly so.
And then, one of my beloved cats died, after 5 years in my state of numb painful hell, and I managed to squeeze out a tear and feel a nuance of love and strength and suddenly my grinch heart grew and I felt powerful once again, lifting that 480 LBS.
Human positive emotions, including pro-social emotions are not an innate human attribute that is static in AFFECT OR effect.
Positive feelings can be increased by positive action in our most innate of all necessary potential of connecting to other folks either virtually but mostly in flesh and blood connections.
And now science shows that use it or lose it does apply.
I will never risk losing my pro-social emotions again, if I can help it, and oxytocin way of connecting to other human beings, as I now understand what it is like to be devoid of them for 5 years, and part of the reason this is my 40th week of rave dancing with hundreds of college age folks at age 54, is science shows now this increases both human pro-social strength of positive emotions and oxytocin connection in the human connection that science suggests IS the number one source of human happiness, overall.
This grinch can now lift 830LBS with his legs in leg press fashion as his heart is now the size of 10 grinches, and truly emotion is what motivates humans in all they do.
It IS SCIENCE 101 now, as science is finally getting the ability to measure the human and grinch heart that used to be smaller than a drop of nothing for me.
This New and GROWING grinch heart is going to dance THE NIGHT AWAY, and make hundreds of folks smile, as 830LB lifting legs can move, baby move with EMOTION FREELY FLOWING LIKE A RIVER TO AN OCEAN OF GOD per Mother Nature TRUE that has gifted some mammals like humans with this potential deLIGHT!
But again, been there done the other place and totally understand the LACK OF SENTIMENT, AND BEST wishes to all from one side of that spectrum of feeling to other in 2015, sincerely so, with LOVE, no matter how sweet and sicky that may sound, as yes those words did make me sick before, when My Grinch Heart of no size was my reality, as such.
Yes, I'm fixing to come down from my mountain, and share the toys of my feat of foot with all the college age folks as they smile on.
And Catholic sexual abuse.
I'm not sure whether decreasing your emotion is good, but it might be. But I think decreasing emotional attachment most probably is good, those being two distinct things. I believe that emotional attachment is the primary thing that is used to manipulate people, and I also think that such manipulation is necessary. But one can decrease one's emotional attachment and I believe this is basically synonymous with enlightenment. This is probably very related to why the most enlightened people in society appear to be the most evil from the perspective of those less enlightened. Another aspect of that might be that when you see a bigger picture doing the greatest good for the greatest number might include dealing with some people in a not so nice way, which someone who doesn't see as big a picture will see out of its context. This makes at least me wonder how much of psychopathy is due to this potential phenomenon alone.
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Another thing that interests me when I read everything you write is that you are a very athletic man, whereas I am a very skinny and weak man. I'm thinking about somatotypes, the theory by psychologist William Herbert Sheldon, where he associated body types with various psychological and other characteristics. I wonder how much our differences in views have anything to do with that. It would also be interesting to look inside your head back in those days when you had little emotion and see if it was similar to what I am now.
Yes, I agree, emotional regulation is not the same as repressing emotion all together.
And emotional attachment per the owning way instead of sharing way, is a kind of emotional sickness, in my opinion, that is propagated by our modern culture of collecting and owning other people through jobs, marriage and other cultural institutions of human repression, oppression, and subjugation over the innate natural human will of others through illusory fears.
Ego is a BOTH AN innate and environmentally created human construct that can be used as potentially what humans recognize as good or evil, but good or evil is a human construct too, and often in a legal way as well.
The movie here, illustrates this well.
[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9FnO3igOkOk]
And in a way, Jack Nicholson is playing the role of what some might term as the Abrahamic version of tough GOD Love.
God per Mother Nature TRUE is the GOD, per HUMAN being, of survival first and foremost.
Unconditional Love is an extremely powerful force that humans are potentially capable of, both innately and environmentally, creating FOR THE BEST OF HUMAN EXPERIENCE IN LIFE.
However, one person's truth of that may be another person's false of that.
And that is where the gray areas come in, well illustrated in this movie clip of 'A FEW GOOD MEN'.
HAPPY NEW YEAR! TOMATO, AGAIN. :)
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Happy new year to you too. What you talk about there wasn't exactly what I was thinking about perhaps when I said emotional attachment, but now that I think about it that is probably part of what I was thinking about. I wasn't thinking so much a bond of emotion to an object, I was thinking more about your mind having attached an emotion to an object. That can be a person, a place, a word, an idea, a smell, a touch sensation, a sound, a certain sequence of sounds, a sequence of events, anything. Usually it's divided into positive and negative, attraction/desire and repulsion/fear, although there might be emotions that aren't in either of those two categories perhaps. Also, I think that we can perhaps have emotional attachment to an emotion.
"Till at last the child's mind is these suggestions, and the sum of the suggestions is the child's mind. And not the child's mind only. The adult's mind too - all his life long. The mind that judges and desires and decides - made up of these suggestions. But all these suggestions are our suggestions!" The Director almost shouted in his triumph. "Suggestions from the State."
While an emotion, as you said earlier, can motivate action, we are slaves under our emotions when we cannot detach from them to any degree at all, or question their origin or soundness to any degree at all, or perhaps aren't even aware of their existence, and more so the stronger emotional attachment we have. I have read some about Vipassana meditation, and tried it some also, and as far as I understand it the main objective of that is to dig into this web of emotional attachments in your mind, observe them and to some degree detach from them. One result of such meditation practice might be that one can observe an emotion in oneself, and then consciously decide what one wants to do with it, instead of being a total slave under it, so-called self-mastery. I have also been thinking about what the connections are to politics. Won't go into that now but yeah I think there are many connections.
Another thing that interests me when I read everything you write is that you are a very athletic man, whereas I am a very skinny and weak man. I'm thinking about somatotypes, the theory by psychologist William Herbert Sheldon, where he associated body types with various psychological and other characteristics. I wonder how much our differences in views have anything to do with that. It would also be interesting to look inside your head back in those days when you had little emotion and see if it was similar to what I am now.
Yes, BODY TYPES most definitely do MAKE A DIFFERENCE, and I have the fortune of living in both body types as is clear to see in the bottom photo of the link below that pictures me as a thirteen year old young man, and this is the body type, overall, I had most of my young life, amazingly so, compared to now, until I reached my 30's.
http://katiemiafrederick.com/2014/12/31/katie-mia-frederick-2014-a-year-in-review/
In the photo as presented, I had attained most of my full height, age 13, at 120LBS.
I was even mistaken for a girl by a cash register operator at McDonalds at that age, so I have a GREAT IDEA WHAT IT IS LIKE TO have gender identity issues as well.
Yes, once one finds out people view one as the opposite sex, what the hell does one do about that, particularly when they are totally happy with the one on their birth certificate, as male in my case.
I have a great deal of FULL EMPATHY for other folks, as I have literally walked in the similar shoes of so many people in this one life, AND that is not just talk, AS I can prove IT with photos of accomplishment, challenges, and medical documentation of life threatening illnesses, including the most severe case of depression and anxiety my Air Force Psychiatrist had ever come across, in his words, after treating PTSD and combat fatigue patients in the war torn military, PER MY YEARS OF ALMOST COMPLETE SHUT-IN ILLNESS FOR 5 LONG YEARS, starting at 47, in 2008.
WHAT I FOUND OUT, WHEN recovering from my illnesses a year and a half ago, is that functionally I was disabled in physical intelligence, emotional intelligence, and sensory integration as all these human functions are tied in with Physical Intelligence controlled through the cerebellum when one practices the art of full human movement.
I had to literally watch my wife to walk and copy her to be comfortable walking in Walmart, even before I got sick at age 47 and before.
It was extremely anxiety provoking for me to walk in any public place without copying someone else, as it simply did not come natural to me then.
But what I find now, is the reason I couldn't do it, was self-fulfilling, as I was tied to my mother's apron strings when young, as my father left at age 3, and I never learned the rough and tumble play that most boys and even girls learn, who have that so-called tougher masculine influence in their life.
And then as an extremely top of the class smart person in school, I spent a life of sitting still listening to lectures and all other ways of reading, and TV input way, instead of physical way of both speech and movement.
And then these undeveloped human skills improved with working with the general public in a job where I was not sitting still all the time, but still it was extremely challenging and I was still not comfortable in my own skin, until just the last year and a half, starting at age 53, with the art of movement PRACTICED MORE FULLY and increasing physical intelligence.
I did my own free style dance and martial arts by instinct and intuition only, as I was retired anyway, and was free to do what ever I could do to recover, and yes, I spent all waking hours doing this, when I recovered from my illnesses through connecting language and emotion together through poetic expression of written language.
My freely expressed movement in increasing physical intelligence allowed me to both express and regulate my emotions verbally and non-verbally.
Proprioception is now considered an actual 6th sense of human beings by some scientist now, and it is truly what I find now, through the art of martial arts, WHAT makes humans feel at ease with their physical environment as well as feeling greater intimate FEELING SENSORY AND EMOTIONAL CONNECTION TO IT, BUT NOT in the attachment way, just a free sensory and emotional connection that has no attachment quality.
I started off walking in reverse, and that helped my severe back pain, and must of changed my brain as well, along with the poetic expression of connecting language and emotion, in what must be some kind of neuroplastic and epigenetic change in mind and body, as even the morphological structure of my body drastically changed, more than at any other time in my life, at age 53, as well as my personality from INTJ to ENFP.
There were also dramatic changes on the AQ quiz from 44 to 45 to 11; Aspie Quiz from 195 to 92; and EQ Emotional Intelligence Quiz from mid 50's to 95, and this was just over the course of the Summer months in 2013.
Generally speaking, I went from a metaphor of using half my brain to all my brain, through language and physical arts of intelligence.
And it all seems to work together, as even science now is starting to show that physical intelligence through the cerebellum and orchestrated down through the vagal nerve from brain to gut, is what drives emotional intelligence in ways of regulating human emotion and sensory integration.
I was never creative until then, did not dance anything but a stiff robot dance, could hardly walk straight, and rarely used complex non verbal language in expressing emotion.
Now people even on this site, some who hated my poetic expression, when I was making this change for the overall good of my health and well being, per one at least, referred to me as a creative genius.
I was always the rigid minded one who could rarely make it out of the box before in life, and now I move in an out of it at will.
I believe in ALL NATURAL HUMAN MIRACLES ONCE ONE FIND A PATH THAT WORKS.
MY PATH and journey to here WAS 53 YEARS, and now 54, and I would not trade my now, not even one now of it, to have all those previous 53 years again, even if I only live one more now in heaven, instead of the true hell that I did not fully realize I lived in, in the past, as total.
I do not know if any of this can help your individual situation but I intuit that your life experience now, is very much like mine, as my mind functioned, per experience in my past as you describe your life in words here now.
I for one have been to literal human hell, and I would not wish that on even Adolph Hitler, as HE the common standard for living flesh and blood HUMAN devil.
But yes, I would wish LITERAL heaven on him, WHICH I LIVE IN NOW, as I know the FULL SPECTRUM OF THE HUMAN CONDITION FOR THE DARK AND LIGHT IT CAN BE.
I FOR one AM IN no position to judge another
one to literal HUMAN hell, in any case.
But I certainly hope for the other place for all others FOR SURE, IN BOTH REASON AND FEELING. :)
AND IN posting this comment I am reading your next comment first, and in short, I agree with you here, as perhaps I did not make it clear that an emotional attachment to any thing or ideology is what I currently have mastery over, through relative free will, through the overall mastery of regulating emotions. :)
Have a great day, as I'm now off to do the chores of life. :)
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Well, for one there is expected to be lower gas prices for the next sense months, dropping the price well below $2.
That's caused by a massive stimulus package worth several $100billion that China is using to upgrade their oil infrastructure and whatnot...
However, the negative side of that is that I also know that a ton of politicians here in America are going to claim that they caused the price drop, which will be very annoying. Also there will be less hybrids and electric cars on the road which will mean that there will probably be a temporary increase in pollution.
Of course, I doubt very many people in Times Square know that.
And other than that it looks like it'll be another year of the same.
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Unless we do something about it!
I wonder what would happen if everybody on earth started
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I am positive that next month my birthday plans will be ruined because I or at least one of my parents will get a horrific case of flu. I read all about how the entire US is infected and the vaccines haven't worked, and when I checked the report on the map of Canada Nova Scotia is one of the few provinces left that's still white, but for how long. I'm just glad I'm not in Alberta right now, they're blood red.
Ebola, Norovirus, influenza, SARS, Lyme Disease, West Nile, FLESH EATING BACTERIA. Every year brings more and more scary and deadly diseases. I can't touch anything with my bare hands, I can't breathe too deeply when I go inside a public building, my mother gets mildly insulted when I refuse a sip from her drink. Next it'll probably be The Plague. ![]()
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