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After a week-plus in San Francisco General Hospital , I am out now .
I am officially DX'd with COPD , aside from my heart and kidneys .
I will give more backstory later .
I am now in a " Respie " shelter where more res/care is , or so I am told , available .
As I said below , while I backed away from some the literal " I may be terminal " I am certainly ~ Well , in a sense , I suppose I'm better now , but worse could happen (A safe fallback position ) !
I had blown up to 325 POUNDS or so , from my water fat , when I went in ~ I am 265-275 lbs. now .
In other words , I'd blown up 50 POUNDS of water/retention !

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

I hope the food is good where you are.

Welcome back.

Welcome back! I bet you feel a lot better with all that water weight gone. Can you breathe better? Did they say you're going to be alright now? I don't know what they do for COPD.

...I shoulda writ " respite " shelter , medical/recovery-oriented ~ It is also a " drying out/sobering " shelter , I guess both folks (like I) who have no alk/drugs problem and those who are , and is , I guess , a fairly lenient " You don't have to be in a program/trying to go straight , however , you can't do nothin' here . Do it outside of here . " rule .
In honor of this I may buy myself a Bud with Clamato , or a PBR or a little Havey's Bristol Cream/Bailey's ~ Jack Daniels ? ~ bottle .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

Good to see ya.

Congrats on getting the right treatment

...To combine all my " halth " posts here , at least for now:
Though I've confined myself to the same basic area , perhaps I have overwalked , I feel a " heart pain/ache " up there , perhaps I overstrain myself .
The food's okay , but hardly " healthy :/tofu , no matter what your idea of the San Francisco norm may be...
The belt that I wore for the VERY FIRST TIME ! on Monday BROKE yesterday !
I have to buy ANOTHER ! belt !
Furthermore , my " outer : clothes , jackets over my shirts & pants , are reaching the end of their road...And getting around really IS a problem for me ~
The place I'm at is in the same area and I have a variation of the same " walk to the libary " and , if less , I DO get tired among the way ...
And getting somewhere to get clothes ...........

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...I still do get tired .
Maybe I'm straining myself .
I still do have the coughing , and I've gotten s**t at the shelter there , too .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...I get a fair amount (if I try??) of sleep/laying down at the shelter , but it's , briefly , not very good sleep .
I am now walking , in a sense , even more uncertainly ~ I have felt strain in my heart area . Perhaps it's getting better , but ......... I do think I could sudenly die of a heart attack .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Okay , backstory ~ What is now ~ I don't want to calculate it , on a Saturday ~ I went to the downtown SF Target store and bought whta amounted to a 2nd decent set of clothes , underwear ~ pretty expensive , I made vague plans to try and go see Batman V. Superman the next day .
However , when I got back to the shelter I was at then , I was told that I was being kicked out ! That night .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

You only just got out of hospital!! And they're kicking you out?

I wonder if habitat for humanity can do anything for you?

...I was taken by my " keepers " back to the 1st of the 3 shelters I've been in in these months (I was kicked out that night of the 2nd) , for one night only - with my stuff along with me , mostly in very clumsy plastic bags ! I got a one-night stay at the 1st shelter again , the next morning I was out , I called my " keepers " , they said they couldn't do anything then , but I could ask to go to the ER or a hospital , so I did , to St. Mary's Hospital .
They did not admit me at St. Mary's , so I was outside , with my heavy stuff , I managed to get someone to call my " keepers " for me , they said that they were not going to work with me , because I had , they said , donesomething offensive , they would not pick me up there outside of St. Mary's ! I thought that they would pick me up and we could discuss where to go . They said they would not work with me that day , I was left , with my heavy , laundry bag-kept possessions , by the side of the road .
I ended up WALKING (with my tired-ness ) , carrying the heavy bags , down to where the Haight-Asbury turns into Golden Gate Park , and went to San Francisco Genral Hospital from there ~ especially since I was 50 pounds overweight , St. Mary's had confirmede that I was 325 pounds then with all of my water weight , but they offered no help (beyone a prescription I suppose) for it ! !!
I'll admit , preparing for SF General , I even did what I've done before when I tried to be hospitalized , and ate lots and lots of sugar to drive my blood sugar up so I'd maybe be admitted ~ I had like 4 McDonalds pies and 12 sugar packets ~ I worked , as I was admitted .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Well , no , Slenkar , what I am speaking of in the two posts before this , which I think I did state in this line if you read the whole thing , was what happened about 2&1/2 weeks ago , the being kicked out of Shelter No. 2 and St Mary's and 4 McDonallds pies and a dozen-ish sugars , this is the " backstory " I spoke of at the beginning of this post .
I am in Shelter #3 now , the " Recuperate " one , now .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...My " Might Be Moved On " line discusses the present ~ Shelter No. 3 ~ situation .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!