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11 Oct 2023, 12:37 am

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I also get thoughts of self harming: jumping in front of trains, jumping into canals, poking my eyes out, plugging my fingers into light sockets, but in my case I don't really want to die, it's just a fight or flight reaction to feeling threatened and not feeling safe in my own skin.


I prefer a slow, tortuous death via disease: namely, type 2 diabetes and stage 3 kidney disease. I’m more than ready to leave this sh!thole called earth.



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14 Oct 2023, 8:19 am

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Stop messaging me don't f*****g talk to me I don't want to ever interact with your f*****g drunk ass again please just shut the f**k up and leave me alone



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14 Oct 2023, 6:48 pm

I didn't realize anyone was paying attention to me not eating, but one of my coworkers (the little old Cambodian lady I work with) gave me food yesterday + another coworker commented on it and I was so embarrassed.



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19 Oct 2023, 8:08 pm

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I've been spending most of my time off of work drunk again.



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19 Oct 2023, 8:36 pm

Im thinking about how young I am going to die, probably mid 40s. Probably better off to die young too, I am so f****d.


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19 Oct 2023, 9:04 pm

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I increasingly feel like I want to kill myself and have started fantasizing about killing myself again.



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19 Oct 2023, 9:09 pm

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I increasingly feel like I want to kill myself and have started fantasizing about killing myself again.


{{FF}}

Not sure what to say, that would be disappointing even if I feel like a hypocrite for saying you've gotta consider other people's feelings.


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20 Oct 2023, 9:55 pm

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I feel like I want to cut myself.



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22 Oct 2023, 12:56 am

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I want to drink, but I'm trying not to drink because I keep vomiting up blood and my liver hurts kind of badly. I feel really like s**t physically.



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22 Oct 2023, 1:11 am

^ can you go to dr or emergency?
that sounds serious.


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22 Oct 2023, 7:58 am

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Doing anything, including just standing up, makes me feel super out of breath/exhausted and I don't like it. I have to go places with my cousin today and I'm scared that I'll collapse or pass out while walking around. I'd give in and go to the ER, but I don't want to change plans just because I feel sick.



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22 Oct 2023, 12:52 pm

Sounds like a good reason to get medical attention to me. Timely medical attention.


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22 Oct 2023, 10:51 pm

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i want to blow my fuckibg brains out i hate being alive



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23 Oct 2023, 12:57 am

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i might give in and buy a shotgun. the wait period/background check will be over and I'd have the gun before my aunt gets back from vacation



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23 Oct 2023, 4:55 pm

{{{ Ff }}}

How are you feeling?



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23 Oct 2023, 5:20 pm

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i might give in and buy a shotgun. the wait period/background check will be over and I'd have the gun before my aunt gets back from vacation


Dude! Don't do that, please. Have you seen Saw X ?, I have it but haven't watched yet.


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