TheMachine1 wrote:
To avoid conflict I ask all those that do not have helpful advice for Aspie17 to not read or post in this thread.
Thanks for saying that TheMachine 1. There are better places than The Haven to question someone's diagnoses or discuss the possibility of someone being a troll. This is the place to come when one is in in pain or to help someone who is; there should be no other reason to post here.
I know what you are doing Aspie17, because I did it too and I was twice your age when I did. You don't want to die; what you want is for someone to give you a reason to live, something to make it worth all the pain that you are in, and nobody has given you a very good one; have they? I can't give you one either because I don't have one myself and I am nearly half a century older than you; what I can do is tell you why I never killed myself and give you something to think about before you do.
Mauapp hit the nail right on the head two weeks ago, you cannot be sure death will solve the problem. It will not get you any friends or increase anybody's opinion of you; it may relieve the pain, but then again it may not, and if you find that it did not there is no way back. I once thought that it could not be any worse, but than it did get worse and I knew I was wrong. I know that is not very comforting, but in a crazy sort of way it helped.
The other reason why I am still alive sounds awfully egotistical. I have come to the conclusion that there is little enough intelligent life on Earth without taking myself out. Do you really hate what is going on inside your head or is it the hell people give you for it? To destroy one of the few people in the world who know how wrong that is would only make the problem worse.
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