I am stronger than I think. Maybe not physically, but certainly mentally. Even during hard times, I never fully broke, and if I did, then I recovered from it. I've been through so much in my life, and I'm still here, trying to enjoy things. Even when things don't look good overall, I still manage to find goodness in smaller things. That does not mean my mind is simple, it is actually very complicated, and that's why I take time to notice and be amused by the smaller things. I am very strong-minded, and better than my ex-boyfriend will ever be!! I am a great person!! I actually learn things!! I actually try to be good when people tell me what's wrong with me!! Maybe sometimes I try too hard, but isn't that better than not trying at all? Whenever I have a bad cold, do I take the day off? No, I get up, no matter how early, and go out and get through the day anyway!! Do I give up on a hard piece of work? No, I spend as much time as I can on it, but I also remember to take breaks so that I don't overwork myself!! After I broke up with my boyfriend, did I give up on the work I had left? No, I got back on track with it and worked until it was good enough for me to get onto the university level course!! Yes, I needed help, but so would anyone else if they'd just gotten out of an abusive relationship that had caused them to miss a lot of days!! And look at me now!! I still have bad memories but I don't break down over them whenever they come to me, I just find them inconvenient!! And despite what I may think, I do have friends!! They may not be the friends I want, but they're the friends I need!! I always seem to get on better with those who are older than me, and most of my group is, so I should be able to become friends with them easily if I haven't already!! Then I can make friends with those who I want to be friends with, I just need some time!! I'm a great person, and better than anyone who was mean to me or made fun of me!! I don't even see why they should have made fun of me, I could have been their friend if they were more accepting and mature!! But no one makes fun of me anymore, or at least not to my face!! I've made it so far in life, I'm surprised at myself sometimes!! I may have made a lot of mistakes and regretted a lot of things, but I'm still living, I haven't let that stop me, I only give up if it's not worth it!!
23 Jan 2016, 4:58 pm
