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...The " psychaitric-industrial complex " peple whose program I'm with have me endlessly riding to their offices to get this or that , including my check & my medication (on seperate days) , and it doesn't help my foot rest much...
I get much of my meals at " stand in line - and go up & down stairs " meal places .
Yes , theyre free . Not very foot-resting .

...I just don't have the money/ability to rest what most ( certainly , those posting upon this ) have...

Being poor is emotionaly hard, especialy if your'e male. You've been in it for a long time, so I don't blame you for feeling like crap all the time. Sure, the health condition isn't helping at all.

Please excuse my spelling. It's basic.

Your foot isn't the only thing that needs rest, I imagne. I would be every bit as miserable in that position.

Last edited by LiendaBalla on 21 Apr 2010, 3:33 pm, edited 3 times in total.

I disagree. On a scientific level, suicide is no solution, simply because nobody knows what death is like. It could be death is worse - and permanent. Would you ever take that chance? What if the day after your death would be the day where you were supposed to finally experience happiness?

If there's life after death, then death is likely to be a "solution" in form of a transition to a higher form of consciousness/other realm/another life/who knows.

If there's no life after death, then death is a solution because it ends suffering.

Both solutions are permanent in relation to the current life, and, therefore, you're wrong.

Unfortunately what CR has written is a very popular quote in the suicide prevention pamphlets. It may be the best way she knew to help. Sometimes people really don't know what to say.

Alll I can say is- hang in there Ass-P, there are people who care and want you to get better. I hope your feet are doing better now too.

I do agree with the pamphlet quote, and its message.

...I just have NO MONEY! , and I just got word to-day , that , the hospital program will be reducing the total aount of $ I get , weekly , and its' monthly total...
I have to complain to Social Security about their tactics in taking my money !
I may have to " formally complain " , and have my check , immediately , cut off...

...As I said elsewhere , I may have to be HL again just to avoid being thrown out , and having an eviction...The bit of extra money I got early on delayed this , but...Really , I just don't have enough money to live decently !
And , I have been trapped in this rut for so long :cry...if I could just get my SSI/D payee staus back , if somebody would just help me to do that .:

You can go to social security and dispute having them be your payee and fight to either handle the money yourself or have someone you trust for a payee. Go down to the local social security office and ask about it.

...Well , thank you for the encouragement , no time to say much now .

,,,If I could just get mu money back , get away from here if need be , see my brother - who I have not seen in nearing THIRTEEN YEARS !

...So much more has happened to me , I'm being , really , forced to be homeless now , but my backpact/etcerera was srolen , before I even started using it , and I must repeace it...

...Briefly , the program I was in has made their intrusion on my life MUCH worse , both on my money and the demans they are making upon me , and , rather than be caught like a fly in a Venus Fly-Trap , I have to make myself homeless before I'm trapped...at a place where the management has tended not to contact me , contacting the program instead , and where an employee expressed strong dislike of me from the start - Literally , during the first week there . - , this employee saying " hed call the police/mental hospital people " on me and saying " he'd locj the door " against me if I was carrying things that he disliked...At least if I leave , I can avoid being evicted...MAYBE I could get my deposit back ?
I AM rusing this out...
I had my backpack/sleeping bag-type gear STOLEN - I was lucky enough to get some last possible money to replace it , but it took up 80 or so dollars I could have spent on something else , after buying a similar set the day before ...the one that was stolen ...

...Perhaps I should get a harmonica and a small bottle of JD (Jack Daniels ) for my back pocket and then I will be a " loveab le hobo " ...