08 Nov 2010, 10:49 pm
Thank you very much for your support!
I began this post because things were looking up for me, I had the person that I want to be with back in my life and it seemed like we were on the right track. I did have a question and that was whether or not to bring up the idea of us getting together after he mentioned it.
I am not really sure how things will end up between us. I do know that I can't have a relationship with a person who will not talk to me for four months at a time. In the past when this has happened I have gotten very upset. I would ask for answers...try to be patient and supportive..and then ultimately get very upset. This has been our pattern. He is continuing the pattern, but I will not. I will not ask him what is wrong or try to point out how hurtful this is to me. I have done that. I have sent letters explaining how much I care about him and asking him to trust me. I have sent a clear list of fair expectations that I asked two of my friends with AS to read to ensure that it was easy to understand and non threatening.
This time, I will just be silent. He will get a card in the mail soon for Veteran's Day. I have all ready sent that, but there will be no questions about his behavior because he won't answer them. And there will be no heartfelt emails asking him to let me into his life. He has 4 videos, several cards, letters, emails, and many pictures that should let him know how I feel.
I am still very glad that I began these posts, because I still hold true to my belief that NT people can be very willing to love and support someone with AS. If both people work together, then there can be a positive outcome. I am not perfect, but what I have posted here is true. I can never fully understand what it is like to be on the Autistic Spectrum, but I believe that I have made every attempt to try to learn. And the message that I would like for anyone who reads this to hear is that I am not so unique. There are other people like me, just like me they won't know alot about autism. But if you are willing to try to help them understand, and to be patient with them...you may just be surprised at how open minded we can be.
I am not actually a naturally patient person. However, this relationship and this person inspired me to be something that can be hard for me. My feelings for him are more important than staying in my comfort zone.
If ever you find yourself in a situation like this, I hope reading my words will give you some insight into what some of us NTs think like. Just because we don't always know what to do..it doesn't mean that we don't want to know. So maybe we aren't so different after all 
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