If you met your own aspergers...

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It's only a mistake if you want it to be and have no resolve to adapt to it.

I am not a mistake; and I've done more than adapt, I revel in my Aspieness!

Your AS is a mistake your body made when growing up.

I guess In your eyes I could be calling you a mistake if you define yourself by a mental defect which is your AS.



Well, yeah...

I am one because I know some and they are right about everything and there has to be some kind of cure, chemical or otherwise that can get rid of it and I'm sure it will come about within my life time.

I don't think you as a person are a mistake (unless your parents didn't plan you, but that's not my business nor is it important to what I'm saying) but AS makes no sense in nature and has no purpose in the world. We are supposed to be NT and if you aren't then your development has made a mistake and you have AS. Its quite simple really.



Wow, you love your job, sounds fascinating. Really makes me glad to have AS knowing that I'm good at my job. I'm an Arborist/Tree surgeon I'm not too busy concentrating on talking to my colleagues about my weekend, my night out, what happened the night before and all the stuff in their social lives and makes me a much better worker. I should be a Marine but AS struck again and its something else it prevented me from doing. Yeah, I love my AS.



Accepting it seems too much like defeat to me and I can't accept defeat. Its done too much damage for me to accept it as a part of me and its my enemy. Its just weakness to say "Hey, I have AS, I guess I have to deal with it", f**k THAT!
There will one day be a way to destroy it and if I accept it, then it wins and I wont let it because I will get rid of it one day.

I used to feel the way that you do about the concept of acceptance. What I learned, is that acceptance isn't a cowardly response to something that you find unacceptable. The purpose of acceptance is to obtain inner peace and strength. From that standpoint, you can better handle anything! I have a physical illness that I struggle with. Sometimes it robs me of entire days, which I must spend resting. No matter how much I rant about how unfair it is, or how it was a mistake that I should be struck with this illness, my lack of acceptance made it that much harder to deal. I realized that acceptance of a thing is not the same as admitting defeat. That was the mistake in thinking that I had been making. Acceptance is taking stock of what IS, and then deciding how to handle it.

Here's an example: Supposing you are very hungry, and there are only a few items of food in your home. You could storm around, complaining about how this is so wrong, others have plenty of food to eat, why should you have this lousy selection of food, etc. Or, you can take stock of what there is, and find some way to prepare a dish that will nourish you. That is what acceptance is. It doesn't mean that you accept defeat, it means that you will do the things that nourish you while you try to cope with the thing that is causing you so much distress. Make sense?

Being NT is my worst nightmare.

How do you know?

@Hughey
Why did you even make the "Have a nice chat" option if all you are going to do is berate those that selected that option?

I'm better off than most other people, and I don't worry about the stupid stuff.

Because its my thread and I can do what I want. I'm anti-autism, just like a gay/black/jewish nazi.



Oh lol and what's the stupid stuff?

Stuff that's beneath you? Sounds like AS.

I had a dream in which I created a manifestation of myself one time. He looked similar to me, but his eye color and hair color were different than mine. It was very easy to have a conversation with him and his mind was similar to mine, but he was wiser and he thought more clearly. In the dream I was more social and could think more clearly, but the traits that made me myself stayed the same. I had a mind that was neither AS or NT that had all of the capabilities that my mind has in real life plus more. I believe that it is possible to have a mind better than your own and become more social without losing the traits that make you yourself. In the dream I made friends with the manifestation of myself and it kind of makes me sad that he doesn't exist in real life. If he existed in real life he would be my best friend. Although he doesn't exist in real life he is a part of me that exists in my conscience. I like to believe that he has a mind within my mind because I created him and gave him traits using information from my subconscience and unconscience. I can't prove that just because he is part of my mind means that he doesn't exist because I am part of my mind too. I like to think that the manifestation inside of me influences me in a positive way. It's nice to think that someone understands me and cares about me even if they don't exist outside of my mind.

Have you ever seen the music video for "Schism" by Tool?

In the middle part of the video to the end there are little grey humanoids who don't have a face but just a giant set of teeth. They are very plain tiny little guys with no features but teeth.

For some reason that's how I view my AS in every dream I have about it when I'mm trying to fight it.

Can't vote on this. I would probably be too much in shock to do anything else but stare.

Well, what would you do once the shock wares off?

If it was stood in front of you and you went into shock, you can't be shocked forever, then what?

I guess I would have to wait to see if it addressed me or had something to say to me. I probably wouldn't strike up the conversation 1st. I wouldn't even know where to start.

I do NOT like having Asperger's Syndrome at all!:(