ChemicalCole wrote:
Am I the only one that still sees the beauty in this world? Can it be that no else cares for true things? Everyone is so concerned with other's social status. I guess that I just haven't grown up quite yet, I just watched as everyone in my class drove around with their friends in their new cars.
Am I the only one that still believes in true love? It seems that most girls are after the same guy, as most males today dress and wear their hair the same.
Am I the only one that doesn't party/drink/smoke/use drugs? Everyone is after one of these 4 things, some do all. I have never been to a house party in my life and why should I? It seems sort of boring.
Am I the only one left? It often seems that I am all alone on this planet. Sometimes I think of going away, far away. Somewhere the people are decent and not all alike. Somewhere I don't feel constant anxiety. Somewhere I can live a peaceful life, and my mind isn't a black hole.
Does anyone else feel like this? One minute you have a hundred of things going through your head, and the other there is nothing, you feel nothing.
Cheers,
Cole.
I find that I can see beauty in many things when I observe them closely enough. It's usually in things that are a simple part of everyday life but have a lot of detail. I see beauty when many different colors, textures, and other visual properties are close together. I enjoy my enhanced Aspie senses and noticing all of the details in things. I like things that have interesting visual properties like shininess, translucency, pearlescence, and illuminance. I enjoy my other senses a lot as well. I enjoy eating many different types of food as well as listening to many different types of music.
I believe that bonds between people are important and can improve your spiritual being, but I prefer to be alone a lot of the time, so I'll probably stay single for my own sake. Finding a good soul mate could be nice if you desire companionship, but it is not the primary purpose of life. The primary purpose of life is to find pleasure, joy, peace, and wisdom. There are many pleasures in life and being a loner doesn't have to prevent you from experiencing them. I never try to match my style with anyone else's. My appearance is entirely my own.
I have never tried any drugs before, unless you consider binaural beats to be a drug. I thought about starting to drink alcohol after I became stressed out from college, but I only ended up taking a few sips. I decided that I didn't want to start drinking and dumped the rest of my vodka down the drain. I have never been to a house party and have no desire to go to one.
I often feel like I'm alone on the planet, but I don't care that much. It's actually kind of peaceful when I'm physically by myself. I often think about what it would be like to live in a place where I could live a peaceful life and people understood me.
When I'm bored and wide awake I have a lot of thoughts going through my head, but when I'm tired I don't think as much.
13 Aug 2012, 4:01 am
