KWifler wrote:
Wow, I told my therapist that I have to sleep more and do less, and he made it seem like I was trying to be lazy. I think now that he thought I was bragging! HOW, WHY WOULD I BRAG ABOUT THIS!??
He said something like "I have to go to meetings for the rest of the day, and you get to sleep."
It is people like this who make it impossible for me to recover!
I don't have a choice! I have to sleep more and do less!
I noticed that people have said "you are very smart" to me, and now I suspect that they say it as an excuse not to help! I'm not smart enough to get myself out of this situation! No, in fact, I can't think at all most of the time!
I think I have figured out that they use a "tone of voice" when they tell me how smart I am, and then they tell me that they expect me to do everything for myself!
Meanwhile my condition worsens, and I have no ability to stop it or get any help at all.
I spent extra effort going places to ask for help, knowing the stress would damage my health more, but hoping that someone would know what to do. All I am able to do is get people jealous of me?? I don't understand it! It seems the more a person knows me, the less they want to help, and the less they believe that I have any problem at all.
You're suffering pretty serious emotional abuse in the situations you are describing. I wish I could pick up the phone for you and call someone that could help. You need a new therapist, is that possible? Is there anyone, absolutely anyone at all, even a distant relative that could jump in and sort any of this out for you? It seems all you need is someone on your side that understands your situation.
I too know what it's like to just want a solid break from it all. The stress of having any disorder on top of a toxic life situation... you are both strong and brave for seeking help.
08 Apr 2014, 10:42 am
