07 Feb 2018, 2:26 pm
07 Feb 2018, 3:10 pm
07 Feb 2018, 3:20 pm
. It is past 1:3] AM on Feb. 7th noe. I was wrong about the age of the movie, it was HOW THE WEST WAS WON (1962). Foo!
Now it's 1966 GRAND PRIX. I had trouble with the hospital guards yesterday. I wanted to walk outside on the hospital grounds as I had Thursday. After that, I was on major IV for a couple of days for my kidnsys (No causation suggested, just chronological order). I wanted to get back into the saddle, walk normally (which is with a crutch), especially since the post-amputation wound on the right of my right foot of months' existence is now bealed 
According to a medico, , as of a coupla ays ago, so I presume it's better now still. Starting on the 6th, IIRC, I started telling the hospital that I wanted to outside-walk again, with me accompanied by a staff member as one had on Thursday's. The 6th had been thr day that the day that, off the IV, I baby-stepped by walking around the ward in my gown and a touch out in the hall. I asked the 7th for a walk on the grounds to be arranged. By well past 4 PM it hadn't. Fully dressed, I walked out into the ward...and walked out the door Into the hall, the elevator, first floor and the grounds, alone. Later, hospital cops found me sitting at a picnic table on tbs grounds where I was finishing the lost earlier draft 
of my last post in the " I feel discouraged " line, which was later closed by the mods 
.I was fixing to leave the table, finish my ex-cursion downstairs, and return to the ward. The cops said there waz hoopla/hoohhaah over my beinv gone from the ward, and ordered me to come upstairs now, or I would be discharged. I did not want that that moment, so I went.
B19, were you unhappy that I mis-posted your name in my last post? Is that why you locked it? It was a posting mistake; and I do have trouble with this tiny, breaking down, phone!
Again, have you really read my more recent posts in that line? I think you'll find I was not asking for help from people and speaking about things I did and hoped to do more of!I think the reasons for that thread being locked went over your head completely. First of all, it seems it was a continuation of another locked thread, as is this one, which is against forum rules. Also the posts were becoming combative. And finally, IMO it should have been locked when you posted your little revenge fantasy involving the drugging and torture of random people just because they are mental health workers. That's something only a deranged psycho would say.
07 Feb 2018, 7:21 pm
07 Feb 2018, 11:44 pm
...RR, I wasn't saying you were, it was " if oeople in general " and I believe to make that clear l paragraphed it separately, though it maybe didn't go up in a way that made that clear enough...and I tried to put this up hours ago, but there wasn'tt enough power then to complete it.
robin62"]@ASS-P
1. I wasn't going to suggest the hospital drive you to your appointments.
2. I wasn't going to suggest you commute one hour from San Jose to Santa Cruz.
I'm just wishing you luck with whatever you do.[/quote]
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
08 Feb 2018, 4:48 am
? MAYBE I did not " spell that out " sufficiently above - I wish there was a " sigh " emoticon. I have to see him!! ! ...YOUR SITUATION HAS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO WITH MY SITUATION! You have a home, regular situation, and more cash gettable easily, which I have not! There was ABSOLUTELY NO " ACTUAL APARTMENT " OFFERED ANYWHERE! WHERE did you get that idea?! !
I am having INCREDIBLE troubles with this nearly powerless phone!
I must sign offI see this thread is already the same as all the others...
08 Feb 2018, 5:48 am
...What was t
spoken of was not only not an apartment, there was no offer made at all. Furthermore, no offer of any kind had been made, I was only asked if I would okay someone who would look for a situation in San Jose and a speculation was made of what an offer could be.
So, it was doubly removed from ANY TYPE of offer!
I believe I outlined reasons to stay in SC. I found out more information about the medical things tonite, so there's even closer to it 
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A hypothetical SJ-SC commute would not be just the hour's bus from one to another on the bus from the SJ Caltrain station to the SC bus station...it would be in extremely spread-out SJ, getting to the train, then the bus, then get to a doctor's office somehow...which I imagine could be somewhere not reachable by bus, and if I was not a SC local, would I be eligible for the Paratransit, that I guess might be eligible for now? 
Even here, I think I'd have to restart a relation with Paratransit, and I don't know that someone not in a medical situaion would be eligble, and if they'd like picking up someone HL/going to a HL place, and how much - and all this SJ-SC riding could come to a fairly considerable chunk of change. I get a low rate on the SC bus system.
And if I was in a place such as the rehab or else here and they have" staying there " rules (Which some people here tell me yo obey.)... Would they like me regularly going to SC from SJ. Even if they did somewhat, would their curfew rules really allow me to do so ?
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
08 Feb 2018, 6:00 am
08 Feb 2018, 6:16 am
...You express your opinion well, Ezra.
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
08 Feb 2018, 6:49 am
...I believe it us now Tbursday the 8th. As things noe stand, I Wii be leaving here, Friday I guess . I could not get into the RCC but there is a more conventional shelter downtown, a d I guess I can bear it . I hope that sO have outlined sufficiently reasons for staying in SV
Some of the time noe? zI am reading with the bad eye closed .
I do hope the getting there and checking in can be smooth. My backpack + duffel is much to heavy for me to rely carry. Presumably, once there, I'd have a couple weeks bed? anyway, and some cubby space somewhere - I hope
Presumably it would be a clear- out-out-all-day situation. Maybe breakfast + dinner? Perhaps I'll sign off no and rest my eyes. Perhaps the damnstions of me for once having eaten a Big Mac and the multi-paragraph I suck and the poster was great (I did not read the last series of them you-know-where) posing a will stay away now. One can only hope! 
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
08 Feb 2018, 7:33 am
08 Feb 2018, 8:01 am
Yeah yeah wink wink.
08 Feb 2018, 10:44 am
@ASS-P. Thanks for the clarification. I hope things go well in the shelter. I'm in a night shelter myself. They feed us dinner and breakfast but I don't eat the breakfast because I'm so eager to leave the place in the morning I just skip it.
This shelter I'm in closes at the end of March. At that time, if there are any clients left, they'll give them a tent, a sleeping bag and directions to the nearest forest.
Basically, this shelter is okay. Some clients make it difficult, though, because some are argumentative, some like to insult people, and of course, some know it all. You know the type - the annoying conspiracy theorists. They know all the secret mechanisms of the government, all the hoaxes that's been perpetrated on mankind (the Holocaust, the moon landing, smoking's relation to lung cancer, etc), and the names of the two or three families that control the world. 
08 Feb 2018, 10:51 am
08 Feb 2018, 2:28 pm
08 Feb 2018, 3:14 pm
...Unfortunately, the above has fallen through .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
